Goodbye, goodnight, we perish!

[watereyes]

-LOT Flight 5055.

This is a goodbye thread i wrote long and I think I wont bother when I do so ill say goodbye and thank you now, even if I ctb in 10 years.

Spoiler

Goodbye guys.. I'm not good with words so I won't be long.


Life has always been absolutely awful. Everyone evolving around me and here I am sitting in this pit of darkness. Never got drunk with friends, never did well at anything, never went to a party, still a virgin, never tried drugs, never even had any real people in my life. It's loneliness, being the weird or creepy one. It was boring. I was told to stay when I was 15 year old and I stayed for 3 more years and here I am. Was it worth it? Not in the slightest. Looking back my life is just depressing. No happiness whatsoever. And to be fair that's what I expect if I keep going. I can't believe my life was such a disaster. I want to sleep forever.


@AnxietyAttack44 is going to be in a call with me. To report whats going on.


Want to say a big thank you to some members -


@cryptic__egg

@angel-of-the-night

@Weeping Garbage Can

@PrettyNoose

@Ange_Fatigue

@Esc9434

@RainAndSadness

@itsmeagain

@mathieu

@Xaria86

@Bärchen

@Myforevercharlie

@thebrinkimdriven

@Mr2005

@Idkwhattodo

@HadEnough1974


And a big hug to all the others I didn't mention.. Time to go now.


I hope I didnt ruin your day.

 

[Lost_the_will2_live]

-LOT Flight 5055.

This is a goodbye thread i wrote long and I think I wont bother when I do so ill say goodbye and thank you now, even if I ctb in 10 years.

Spoiler

Goodbye guys.. I'm not good with words so I won't be long.


Life has always been absolutely awful. Everyone evolving around me and here I am sitting in this pit of darkness. Never got drunk with friends, never did well at anything, never went to a party, still a virgin, never tried drugs, never even had any real people in my life. It's loneliness, being the weird or creepy one. It was boring. I was told to stay when I was 15 year old and I stayed for 3 more years and here I am. Was it worth it? Not in the slightest. Looking back my life is just depressing. No happiness whatsoever. And to be fair that's what I expect if I keep going. I can't believe my life was such a disaster. I want to sleep forever.


@AnxietyAttack44 is going to be in a call with me. To report whats going on.


Want to say a big thank you to some members -


@cryptic__egg

@angel-of-the-night

@Weeping Garbage Can

@PrettyNoose

@Ange_Fatigue

@Esc9434

@RainAndSadness

@itsmeagain

@mathieu

@Xaria86

@Bärchen

@Myforevercharlie

@thebrinkimdriven

@Mr2005

@Idkwhattodo

@HadEnough1974


And a big hug to all the others I didn't mention.. Time to go now.


I hope I didnt ruin your day.

Your the sweetest soul

 

[lostangel]

I hope you can be at peace. You don't deserve pain. Life is a cruel joke.

 

[FriendofDeath]

Sending you light and love for whatever journey you take.

 

[Esc9434]

From what I gathered... You are not ctb'ing right now, but in the future. At least you are giving life a chance...

A lot of you younger SS posters are hard on yourself when it comes to social expectations... My answer to that problem is to grow at your own pace.

Who cares what other people are doing? Life is a marathon, not a sprint.

Your little friends are going to grow up too soon and burn themselves out. You don't know what they are doing behind the scenes or what sacrifices they have made to become this person you "worship". They could have done some bad things.

Work on your weaknesses, learn new skills, get new non-mainstream hobbies.

You do these things and you will eventually find yourself in a room full of people who appreciate you, and don't care about such silly things as listened in your OP.

@cryptic__egg @Loser

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

Whether you go now, or never, i always wish you lots of good luck and peace, no matter what you decide, and to always rest well, wether in every day life, or eternal peace.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Feels like that entire post could have been written by me tbh. You're a cool person, I wish I didn't have to see you going through this.

 

[watereyes]

From what I gathered... You are not ctb'ing right now, but in the future. At least you are giving life a chance...

A lot of you younger SS posters are hard on yourself when it comes to social expectations... My answer to that problem is to grow at your own pace.

Who cares what other people are doing? Life is a marathon, not a sprint.

Your little friends are going to grow up too soon and burn themselves out. You don't know what they are doing behind the scenes or what sacrifices they have made to become this person you "worship". They could have done some bad things.

Work on your weaknesses, learn new skills, get new non-mainstream hobbies.

You do these things and you will eventually find yourself in a room full of people who appreciate you, and don't care about such silly things as listened in your OP.

@cryptic__egg @Loser

It just makes my life boring. but its not a reason to ctb. it just makes it overall shitty. I practice my skills all day. does that make it fun? kinda, but not worth it. just lame. I care about these things i mentioned to an extent. if i had them I would wanna ctb anyways'.

 

[Azzy69]

Good luck. Hope its as quick and painless as possible

 

[Busdriver]

Your story is so similar to mine!

I hate it that pro-lifers just cannot understand it..

 

[StuckAF]

Noo :((

 

[MewtwoIsAlive]

I feel you so much, its the worst feeling

 

[Jumper Geo]

I hope what ever you choose is successful.

Best of luck

Cheers

Geo

 

[mathieu]

Tu es belle, à l'intérieur comme à l'extérieur et le monde devrait pleurer de t'avoir perdu, comme je le ferai

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

I understand you very well, because my life was exactly as you described yours.

The difference is that I am already 52 years old, but now I am at the same point.

You can easily give yourself another chance and see what the next few years bring, but don't make it too long.

The pain becomes more and more unbearable if nothing changes.

 

[watereyes]

Tu es belle, à l'intérieur comme à l'extérieur et le monde devrait pleurer de t'avoir perdu, comme je le ferai

Oh merci d'écrire en Français pour moi <33 Almost crying. <3

 

[HadEnough1974]

Oh merci d'écrire en Français pour moi <33 Almost crying. <3

Yeah, me too :(