MsMaudlin

MsMaudlin

This is the fierce last stand of all I am
Dec 8, 2019
875
When I joined this site in December it was very confusing at first, and I became friends with Dear Flabby.

We bonded over our illnesses, we both had fibromyalgia, both had unsupportive family situations, there were many similarities between us.

Very soon we became friends in the real world, via Whatsapp and email, she was in Canada and me in the UK but we communicated multiple times every day.

I told her all my problems, she told me hers, and we created a bond.

The time for me to CTB came and went due to childcare issues, she was going to support me through my suicide, so when the date arose for her to CTB I naturally wanted to be beside her via Whatsapp.

Dear Flabby was in contact with me all day yesterday, the time difference is huge, so I stayed up through the night to support her.

She ingested her SN (described as a gulp of sea water) and became nauseous with feelings of dizziness.

She laid on the bed a short while afterwards, we said our goodbyes and how we loved each other.

Rest in paradise Dear Flabby, until we meet again
 
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Jumper Geo

Jumper Geo

Life's a bitch and then you die.
Feb 23, 2020
2,910
RIP Dear Flabby, we will miss you.

Sounds like it was a peaceful and fast CTB.

Best wishes

George
 
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mesohappy

mesohappy

Cat piss sammich??
Jan 10, 2020
674
Rip Dear Flabby,hugs to you for being with her in her final moments.Hugs to you period.Hugs to us all.
 
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Deleted member 1465

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Jul 31, 2018
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It always feels so unreal. I'm really going to miss her. I knew it was coming but it's still hard. I hope her suffering is finally over for her. It's good you were here for her. This must be terribly tough for you.
 
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Lostandfound7

Lostandfound7

Just waiting....
Jan 21, 2020
995
She was such a sweet, sweet soul :aw: :heart:

Sleep easy Beautiful Dear Flabby..I'm gonna miss speaking to u so so much..I'm heartbroken.:aw:
 
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soundsofsilence

soundsofsilence

Is my life, my choice, my decision.
Feb 1, 2020
25
Rest in peace Dear Flabby :heart:
 
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Nem

Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
1,489
She was a very nice person and will be missed greatly, very very sad :(
RIP ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
 
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AlreadyGone

AlreadyGone

Taking it day by day
Jan 11, 2020
917
I never care for a person's reason for ctbing, but it always hurt to see a person go. It takes a great deal of courage to go through the act and it reminds me of how courageous a person truly is. May she R.I.P. and I hope her passing was as painless as possible.
 
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xBrialesana

xBrialesana

Become Dust With Me, My Love.
Dec 17, 2019
552
Thank you so much Dear Flabby for being there for me :( rest easy in paradise and take care of yourself, you've done enough for others :heart: :heart: :heart:

As always, I'm so grateful for her to be out of pain but selfishly saddened at this community's loss. :eh: Glad you're free from the pain of this world, Dear Flabby
 
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Blutsager

Experienced
Mar 11, 2020
220
As much as missing a fellow member is sad, I am glad she had the chance to both take such a good method to CTB, being SN, and that she had your company until the last moments. You are an incredible person, and I assure you, your beautiful action will not go unnoticed by our Lord. He will hold you on great steem, both to keep you safe on this harsh times... or to receive you in open arms on the Heavens... where you'll meet each other once again. Remember, this was not a farewell, but a simple goodbye. You'll be together, perhaps in a long time or maybe soon, but until then, rest in peace knowing what a great deed you did that night, and what a great human being you are.
Thank you for sharing this story, hearing about a death by SN, seeing as I just bought two kilos of it, is reassuring.

Don't be sad. She is looking at you right now, forever thankful for what you did for her. And when the time comes... she will hug you and thank you personally.

I love you. Be safe. And most importantly, be calm, knowing what you did for her, and that our Lord deeply appreciates your sacrifice... yes, sacrifice, what you did took a part of your soul off you, nothing less would describe what you did there.

And I thank you.
 
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Esc9434

Student
Feb 25, 2020
192
I am new here, but it is a strange feeling seeing once active members disappear forever. :aw:
 
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Tothemoonandback

Member
Mar 7, 2020
7
I am new here, but it is a strange feeling seeing once active members disappear forever. :aw:
Me too. I feel the same as you
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
Dear Flabby will be missed
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
9,326
I hope she is at peace now. :heart: :heart: Sending you hugs. :hug::hug::hug:
 
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Donk

Useless since day 1
Jan 3, 2020
1,129
dear flabby often reached out to me to show her support. its sad to see anyone go but i'm crying as im typing. rip dear flabby
 
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LMLN

LMLN

Paragon
Aug 10, 2019
929
Rest in peace Dear Flabby. You will be missed.
 
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Quarky00

Quarky00

Enlightened
Dec 17, 2019
1,956
Goodbyes here are hard (I hate this). Flabbs is so sweet and whimsical and straightforward and cool. She is so part of us. I never cry, but, well.. bit messed up.. can't really write..

MsMaudlin, losing a close friend.. I'm glad you had each other, two sweet brave girls. I know you are in lots of pain. It's really good having you here (not just now). Thank you.

Flabbs, I hope you find peace and that you're floating in the clouds, without pain :heart: You deserve nothing but happiness. (I miss you too, love)
 
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one4all

one4all

I'll put pennies on your eyes and it will go away.
Feb 3, 2020
3,455
@MsMaudlin i'm deeply sorry for your lose, as the community is. May she RIP.
I'm not sure about where she did it.. is there a chance so could have been found before she exited?

Sorry if that sounds out of line or insensetive
 
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jgm63

Visionary
Oct 28, 2019
2,467
Hope that she has gone somewhere beautiful..... :heart:
 
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Hopeindeath!

Elementalist
Dec 7, 2019
800
You are so kind to have stayed with her. She will be missed.:hug:
 
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Brackenshire

Arcanist
Feb 23, 2020
467
Rest in peace Flabby...made whole with no pain
 
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TeenIdle

TeenIdle

Member
Feb 29, 2020
99
I didn't know her, but may Dear Flabby rest in peace :'(:heart:
 
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faust

faust

lost among the stars
Jan 26, 2020
3,138
Thank you for a tribute, @MsMaudlin !
I hope Dear Flabby found her peace and will no longer face the cruelty of this world...
 
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Morphinekiss

Enlightened
Jun 8, 2019
1,207
Flabby requested some of us listen to any version of this song, she believed it would help her soul rest more easily. And as promised I spent Monday listening to different covers. For you flabby :heart:

 
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MsMaudlin

MsMaudlin

This is the fierce last stand of all I am
Dec 8, 2019
875
Flabby requested some of us listen to any version of this song, she believed it would help her soul rest more easily. And as promised I spent Monday listening to different covers. For you flabby :heart:


I played that song just as our communication stopped, its a beautiful song, I have always loved it.
Thankyou
 
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