BleedingHeart

BleedingHeart

Student
Nov 5, 2019
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Ordered meto about a week ago and took the plunge and ordered SN this morning. I wasn't wanting to purchase them so close together just so that I could stalk the mailbox for one at a time and sort of be able to breathe a bit between them, but hopefully this way I'll only have a few days left to be focusing on watching the mail like a hawk to avoid interception. Good vibes would be appreciated. I am anxious about all that needs to be considered to CTB, but at least in a few days I have the option out.
I worry too about my husband randomly finding my purchases if I don't CTB by tax time (he could potentially see them in some of my business account transactions/purchases.) I hate having to cover my ass and worry so much.
Thanks so much for any good vibes you can spare and hope you all are having a good or at least decent weekend. <3
 
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Stan

Stan

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MeltingHeart

MeltingHeart

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Sep 9, 2019
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I don't know your story - but from one 'Heart' to another - def can send good vibes -kind of wanted to send the beach boys song- good vibrations! But you might hate them.
 
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Lethe

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Sep 19, 2019
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Channeling all my good vibes your way rn-- I've aligned all of my chakras for maximum amplification and most efficient transpondence of said vibes through the aether. Concentrated pulsations of this most holy and blessed light are now being laser guided directly to you, intensely charging your aura with the highest vibrations possible on this earthly plane.

Seriously though, I'm sure you'll get the supplies with little hassle. Best of luck whatever you end up choosing to do. Hugs.
 
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SuicidalSymphonies

SuicidalSymphonies

I think I'll take a dirt nap.
Oct 13, 2019
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Sending lots of love and good vibes. My heart goes out to you during these times. x
 
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BleedingHeart

BleedingHeart

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Nov 5, 2019
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Channeling all my good vibes your way rn-- I've aligned all of my chakras for maximum amplification and most efficient transpondence of said vibes through the aether. Concentrated pulsations of this most holy and blessed light are now being laser guided directly to you, intensely charging your aura with the highest vibrations possible on this earthly plane.

Seriously though, I'm sure you'll get the supplies with little hassle. Best of luck whatever you end up choosing to do. Hugs.
Thank you so much!
Sending lots of love and good vibes. My heart goes out to you during these times. x
I really appreciate it. Sending hugs to your heart.
 
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Darkhaven

Darkhaven

All i have left is memories
May 19, 2019
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Hey!
I'm in the same boat.
I'm also waiting for these two products.
It's normal to be anxious, i am a bit anxious too.
But i'm very confident that everything will be fine.
The mail will probably come in the morning when i'm home alone and nobody will notice a thing.
And if they do. They can't do nothing about it.
I'm a grown man. Is my mother gonna hit me like when i was a kid? I don't think so.
Hopefully it will be the same with you.
 
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BleedingHeart

BleedingHeart

Student
Nov 5, 2019
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Hey!
I'm in the same boat.
I'm also waiting for these two products.
It's normal to be anxious, i am a bit anxious too.
But i'm very confident that everything will be fine.
The mail will probably come in the morning when i'm home alone and nobody will notice a thing.
And if they do. They can't do nothing about it.
I'm a grown man. Is my mother gonna hit me like when i was a kid? I don't think so.
Hopefully it will be the same with you.
Morning mail should definitely help. Sending Peace and Calm to you.
My husband would definitely call someone and I'd end up in a psych ward so I'm definitely anxious.
 
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BleedingHeart

BleedingHeart

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Nov 5, 2019
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Omg y'all husband is feeling sick today. I hope he wakes up fine tomorrow and goes to work. Pretty sure my meto might come tomorrow- I am watching the tracking. and I have a psych appt tomorrow morning I can't cancel so I'm also hoping mail doesn't come while I'm gone (usually comes after 12noon). I'd be getting home like right at 12.
I need to be alone when this mail arrives; I haven't ordered anything in months so it could really be suspicious. I'm trying so hard to keep my shit together. If he stays home from work I don't know how I could possibly play this off as I have no clue if he will be sick and sleeping upstairs or in same room as me when mail arrives- I hate not feeling in control.
 
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Good vibes being sent your way. I'm waiting on sn too. Haven't ordered meto yet. I'm just not thinking about the sn delivery. Knowing me, I'll be in the loo.
 
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BleedingHeart

BleedingHeart

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Nov 5, 2019
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Good vibes being sent your way. I'm waiting on sn too. Haven't ordered meto yet. I'm just not thinking about the sn delivery. Knowing me, I'll be in the loo.
Good vibes all around and hopefully low anxiety
 
Meant2Die

Meant2Die

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Nov 8, 2019
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I'm waiting on my meto and SN delivery as well.
 
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jgm63

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Oct 28, 2019
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Could you create some cover stories ?
eg mention that you've been having some travel sickness and you ordered something to help ?

Might be a bit harder for the sodium nitrite.... I suppose you could you make up some story about keeping food fresh.
Or perhaps just hope that the SN is not discovered....

At least the story about the travel sickness will halve the risk....
 

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