1st off, WELCOME to Sanctioned Suicide!! It is GREAT to have you as a new global family member. My hope and wish for you is that you find, like I have, all the love, caring, support, empathy and kindness that the whole global family has here. This site and this family are all AWESOME! Again, WELCOME!!! 2nd, I TOTALLY feel for you and feel so sorry for you. We could REALLY be twins. I was the "product" of a night out and booze. All my life till 18, my "parents" called me: "the mistake". To my face, out in public, everywhere. When I was 18, they figured out that I was bi and kicked me out and never spoke to me again ever, their choice. When they died, they left my younger sister a hobby farm and cash and my older brother, in U. S. dollars, 2 million and I got ZERO. You are a VERY nice, smart and personable person, one can tell by your post. NO, your father is TOTALLY wrong period. Besides all of my early life expereince, I am 64 years young and I have ALOT of life experience as far as my "parents" were 100% wrong and/or had mental issues. I always wondered why my "parents" treated me SO POORLY and after I was totally on my own I never thought about it very much again. For me it was like carrying a load of rocks in a backpack strapped to me, did me no good and just weighted me down, especially mentally. I am hoping that you find happiness and if ones father or parents or whoever are such that they are mean without cause, or like mine, who seemed to actually enjoy it, YIKES!, then maybe plan ones life around a persons self with other friends and of course all of the GREAT Sanctioned Suicide global family here that loves, cares has empathy, support and boundless kindness towards and for you! Walter