Gonna attempt in next 24 hourso

[Jen0804]

Wish me luck pleas
I'll need it
This isn't the way I wanted to ctb but I have no choice
I've reached my breaking point today

I'm gonna go see family one last time

 

[Soul]

Ohhh dear lovely @Jen0804 - this is too sad! What's happened?! I want only the best for you, whatever you decide, but ... Are you sure? Be careful! (((Hugs)))

 

[Jen0804]

Ohhh dear lovely @Jen0804 - this is too sad! What's happened?! I want only the best for you, whatever you decide, but ... Are you sure? Be careful! (((Hugs)))

I'm sure :( I am a failure. I have had problem upon problem piling up and can never get anything right. I shoulda done it a long time ago I was just trying to hold on in hopes things would work out and so I'd have a chance to talk to a long lost friend one more time but I'm really hurting and feel done

Completely done.. I'm no good and I hate life. I hope it works, I just feel bad because nobody has any idea. My partner just came in to apologise for something but as much as I love them I feel like I've been tipped overboard and I've sn

 

[bluesky1972-2019]

Sorry to hear things have got so bad for you. You will be missed. We are here if you need to talk. I wish you the peace you are seeking. x

 

[TenHas]

I hope @Jen0804 ctb is really what you want..just be sure...have been there and I'm still there, finding every dam day new excuse to see next morning...clock will run out sooner when I was thinking and there won't be any excuses anymore... I'm whit you what ever you do ..

 

[Morto]

Wish you luck buddy

 

[Soul]

@Jen0804, I'm so so sorry. We're here if you want to talk. I want the best outcomes for you whatever you decide. Have you got all the "ingredients" to follow the suggested regimen? Please be careful ...

 

[phoenixx]

I'm sorry it has come to this but I wish you all the best and I really hope you finally find peace

 

[SinisterKid]

Tell me you dont like Brandy and I will tell you I dont have your name tattooed on my arm. [both would be lies]

Seriously Jen, we all have our breaking points, but its true what they say about acting in haste. Sometimes, we just need to stop and take a moment to think clearly. If its what you really really want, fine, I can get that and I wish you a safe journey in your quest to find your own peace.

 

[Jen0804]

Thanks all
I don't know what to say but my heart feels really heavy. Just laying in bed because I'm exhausted. I'm going to set off into the woods around 7pm tomorrowtvh

Gives me a few hours to rest and prepare

Thank god for this place because i e have been competely alone otherwise
It feels real now. I've had it on my mind so long I'll be glad when it's o
over but I know it's good I do it with a clear head so illl spent the next day seeing people I love and shutting down my email accounts etc

Xx
<3 Soul <3

yes ...

 

[SinisterKid]

Where does the long lost friend figure in all this? I told a very old long lost friend about my attempt and it seemed to destroy the friendship. That might be in my own mind, I dont know. But contact has been nil ever since.

I hope the ones you care about and those who care about you are onboard with your decision as it will make the act itself less of a strain on you.

 

[thedutchguy]

Sorry that life brought you here to this point, Wishing you the best possible outcome for you

 

[jake3d]

Oh, come on. Don't tell me the doctor has withdrawn your pain meds! Please stay with us, you may find a solution soon.

 

[Lara Francis]

Wish me luck pleas
I'll need it
This isn't the way I wanted to ctb but I have no choice
I've reached my breaking point today

I'm gonna go see family one last time

Lovely @Jen08jen
This situation makes me feel very sad.
I wish i could do or say something that could help.
Please know that you are very much loved here and we will miss you.
Please come back to us if you hopefully change your mind,there is absolutely no shame.
I am sending you,love,peace and safe travels (even though i would love for u to stay) but i respect whatever decision you make xx

 

[Faraway1990]

The way things are going in my life I'll probably be CTB soon I'd ask you think about it make sure it's the right choice for you. And I hope that whatever you decide you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Jen0804]

Hugs

Thanks everyone for making sure I've thought through it properly I really feel like I have. I always come back to this back to suffering and I really feel like life has gone to shit, so has my body and mind,
Don't know what else to say. I'm just thinking of a few people I feel guilty for doing this to and I just think to myself , I never wanted much. In the end nothing worked out and I came do close but all doors are shut in my face now and yeah I'm ready to go

I wish I could hug everyone and say I'm sorry for what's going to happen but everyone has been ignoring me for weeks or months

Don't want any flowers when I'm gone when nobody could spend five mins emailing me :(

Nobody knows who I am who's viewing this but I'm sorry anyway to them all

I'm just reminiscing right now and hoping that in the morning I have a little energy to do last minute prep

I'm grateful to all of you

I'll be back on tomorrow before I set off and destroy my devices

 

[Soul]

My dear and lovely @Jen0804, I wish that the world had been kinder to you. Here are fresh (((hugs))) to keep you safe and cared-for on your way. If you have misgivings or if things don't go to plan, come back to us. We'll think of something together x

 

[TimeToDie]

Good luck, Jen.

 

[Faraway1990]

I can relate to a lot of what you write I won't write much because this is your space, but I've tried so much but doors just keep closing and being treated unfairly etc hugs I send you all my best intentions for you to find peace.

 

[crimea_river]

I never interacted with you Jen, not saying that would have made a difference, obviously ;)

However things play out for you going forward, I hope you painlessly find your little clearing in the woods.

Many hugs and much luck.

 

[Alec]

I'm thinking of you, and I'm with you - you are not alone!!! Stay strong!

 

[LifeIsNotFun]

All the best xo

 

[Jen0804]

Hey

I had to wait and get a better rope
I've taken diazepam and drunk wine to relax myself and have sturdy ones now

So I'm going to listen to some music and when ready just go for it with all I have

Thanks everyone and hopefully bye
If anyone is wondering about the n, I can't wait around for that six weeks would be the end of me. Wishing you well

X

 

[bluesky1972-2019]

Hey

I had to wait and get a better rope
I've taken diazepam and drunk wine to relax myself and have sturdy ones now

So I'm going to listen to some music and when ready just go for it with all I have

Thanks everyone and hopefully bye
If anyone is wondering about the n, I can't wait around for that six weeks would be the end of me. Wishing you well

X

You are brave and will be missed. I hope you find the peace you are seeking. We are all here if you need to talk x

 

[Jen0804]

Thanks :)

Hugs hugs

 

[bluesky1972-2019]

Thanks :)

Hugs hugs

Thinking of you x

 

[not_a_robot]

Wish me luck pleas
I'll need it
This isn't the way I wanted to ctb but I have no choice
I've reached my breaking point today

I'm gonna go see family one last time

Good luck.

 

[Soul]

@Jen0804, I wish the world had been a nicer place for you. (((Hugs))) Journey well

 

[done_so_done]

Good luck, fellow sufferer...

 

[Jen0804]

Ok off I go. I added morphine into the mix so if this doesn't kill me then well I'm double gone
MY heart is racing so it' all working togetherTAKE CARE everyone