dreaming
sleepy
- Feb 11, 2026
- 23
Sorry if this is vague idk how much I'm comfortable saying and I don't want my posts on here being tracked back to me for obvious reasons, I already wonder if I'm being "too open".
This first part is kinda sad(but its relevant and sorta constructive) so skip if you want:
It's so hard to bring myself to do much of anything anymore, I'm so exhausted from just existing, but some family members moved back in where I stay rather suddenly a few days ago, I was used to living alone by now. I was going to try to ctb again relatively soon, but I don't think I'm going to attempt when I thought I was, since as long as they're here I'd be at way more of a risk of hospitalization with them being here most of the time and checking on me relatively often.
Here's where the positive stuff starts, hence why I put this in recovery(I hope this belongs here):
Wasn't my intention at all originally, but I figure I think I'm going to *try* to get their help with whatever can be done to make living more bearable, I do at least have a few things in mind.
The hard part for me, I think, is getting the courage to actually talk to and ask family for help even now that they're here all the time, since a lot of it is sensitive and hard for me to talk about with anyone, especially people I'm related to.
I don't feel any better, but I see a rare opportunity to possibly improve at least something in my life and I intend to take it now that it's available.
Hopefully if things go well, maybe I'll have something else to say in the recovery section sometime in the future.
Extra:
Originally my entire viewpoint of the situation was much more negative, like I've been roadblocked from the escape I had planned for by sudden and completely accidental family intervention, but I realized maybe something good *can* come out of it.
This first part is kinda sad(but its relevant and sorta constructive) so skip if you want:
It's so hard to bring myself to do much of anything anymore, I'm so exhausted from just existing, but some family members moved back in where I stay rather suddenly a few days ago, I was used to living alone by now. I was going to try to ctb again relatively soon, but I don't think I'm going to attempt when I thought I was, since as long as they're here I'd be at way more of a risk of hospitalization with them being here most of the time and checking on me relatively often.
Here's where the positive stuff starts, hence why I put this in recovery(I hope this belongs here):
Wasn't my intention at all originally, but I figure I think I'm going to *try* to get their help with whatever can be done to make living more bearable, I do at least have a few things in mind.
The hard part for me, I think, is getting the courage to actually talk to and ask family for help even now that they're here all the time, since a lot of it is sensitive and hard for me to talk about with anyone, especially people I'm related to.
I don't feel any better, but I see a rare opportunity to possibly improve at least something in my life and I intend to take it now that it's available.
Hopefully if things go well, maybe I'll have something else to say in the recovery section sometime in the future.
Extra:
Originally my entire viewpoint of the situation was much more negative, like I've been roadblocked from the escape I had planned for by sudden and completely accidental family intervention, but I realized maybe something good *can* come out of it.
