Going insane.

[mrelief82]

Does anyone feel like going more insane with whats hapoening with them and around them and for this reason need to CBT? I cant exist any longer …

 

[dggtscccvfd]

Feel totally the same. I'm driving myself insane with my roundabout thoughts and can't wait to CTB.

 

[Tokugawa_Yoshinobu]

Yes. This happens a lot. My head can't handle things anymore.

 

[notforl0ng]

I'm gonna turn 25 this year and that's coincidentally when mental illness in men matures properly. I'm definitely going insane. If I don't CTB this year I'll end up in jail for doing something horrible probably. There's a few people who've done horrible shit to me in recent years that I'd love to get revenge for, but that doesn't make me any better than them so I dunno.

I'd get help for it, but that's not even an option. The psych ward doesn't help anybody lol. You aren't alone OP.

 

[mrelief82]

I'm gonna turn 25 this year and that's coincidentally when mental illness in men matures properly. I'm definitely going insane. If I don't CTB this year I'll end up in jail for doing something horrible probably. There's a few people who've done horrible shit to me in recent years that I'd love to get revenge for, but that doesn't make me any better than them so I dunno.

I'd get help for it, but that's not even an option. The psych ward doesn't help anybody lol. You aren't alone OP.

Oh Yes to i wanted to regentem too but im not able to and now it wont help Me as this went too far. Just want to dissapear completely.
I was trying to get help but it was making Me worse , nobody understood whats with Me … my last therapist actually talked Me out from helping myself …. And it was last chance . I would like to live but cant :(

Hospital didnt help i think it maybe was too late …

 

[notforl0ng]

Oh Yes to i wanted to regentem too but im not able to and now it wont help Me as this went too far. Just want to dissapear completely.
I was trying to get help but it was making Me worse , nobody understood whats with Me … my last therapist actually talked Me out from helping myself …. And it was last chance . I would like to live but cant :(

Hospital didnt help i think it maybe was too late …

I hope we find peace eventually buddy. It's not fair being your own worst enemy, I understand that

 

[mrelief82]

Yep definitely, less motivation every month, more intrusive thoughts every month, less mental energy. A mind that flip flops around with what it does and doesn't wanna do. Useless! I just want it and my body to die ASAP

Same… i dont mind the body but mind is just No use anymore:(

 

[Dliena]

I totally feel ya OP there are times where I'm just ready to snap a brick

 

[thegoldengirls]

I hope we find peace eventually buddy. It's not fair being your own worst enemy, I understand that

That's a word, and for some of us...our own biggest bully. A bully you can at least fight back or run away from.
It feels like there is no escaping that when the negative thoughts are in your own head.

 

[onbekend]

I know. I am definitely going more insane, I think I might be hallucinating half the time. The only releases from my insanity are slowly becoming less and less available to me, and thus I have more of a growing desire to CTB every day.

 

[mrelief82]

I totally get you , i've nit flet the ground for over 4 years now, dissociated for so long, trying to jump back to life but didnt Work , recently Days im more and more Lost and confused, attached to nothing

 

[4everDone]

No matter how hard I try to escape from insanity it always follows me for some reason. I tried to tame it but suddenly I realised I'd be a much more miserable person if I had it under control. Right now my mind is very scattered, mainly because I'm in an environment that's completely new to me. Well, maybe not that, but the way it's being represented is kinda weird. At the end of the day I will either have it back under control, if not, I'm out. Was a good run, but it's either me or I'm dead.

 

[mrelief82]

No matter how hard I try to escape from insanity it always follows me for some reason. I tried to tame it but suddenly I realised I'd be a much more miserable person if I had it under control. Right now my mind is very scattered, mainly because I'm in an environment that's completely new to me. Well, maybe not that, but the way it's being represented is kinda weird. At the end of the day I will either have it back under control, if not, I'm out. Was a good run, but it's either me or I'm dead.

I feel the same, after few years i felt recently that i maybe found way out and be able to control life, but step taken to late and all fell apart completely…. There is No way of living like this any longer its just not possible

 

[Enigma the orange]

Does anyone feel like going more insane with whats hapoening with them and around them and for this reason need to CBT? I cant exist any longer …

It sounds like you're going through a really tough time right now, and it's brave of you to reach out for support. Feeling overwhelmed by what's happening within and around you is incredibly challenging.
If you're feeling like you can't exist anymore, I would that feeling would be normal, because I often feel it.

This life is meaningless in many ways, looking for an answer is just a brain fuck.
Death is a gateway to peace