Hey guys
I'm in so much emotional pain. It's horrible when you are sleeping and you dream of being in a place in the past when you were happy and then I wake up and realize your current circumstances and I have this painful knot in my throat that it's hard to breathe and so much sadness. I just so desperately wish I was back in that place of happiness but you just have to accept that your not, that your happiness is in the past and I know it will never come back and I can't accept my circumstances, my pain.
The worst part about ctbing is the thought of your loved ones having to endure this pain or worse. It shatters my heart into a million pieces just thinking about I start to bawl my mom is 80 and she has been the best mother she sacrificed everything for me and my siblings, she always went above and beyond to make sure we had whatever we wanted, she always protected us, maybe sometimes a little too much.my and my siblings are her whole world she's in a time in her life where she deserves to have us take care of her and make sure she is happy so when I imagine ctbing it's just me being so cruel to her, after everything she's done and sacrificed this is how I pay her back, it just kills me.
I hate the universe and what I really don't understand is why people, good people like slot of us on this site, why we have to suffer so much, what did we do to deserve this
I'm in so much emotional pain. It's horrible when you are sleeping and you dream of being in a place in the past when you were happy and then I wake up and realize your current circumstances and I have this painful knot in my throat that it's hard to breathe and so much sadness. I just so desperately wish I was back in that place of happiness but you just have to accept that your not, that your happiness is in the past and I know it will never come back and I can't accept my circumstances, my pain.
The worst part about ctbing is the thought of your loved ones having to endure this pain or worse. It shatters my heart into a million pieces just thinking about I start to bawl my mom is 80 and she has been the best mother she sacrificed everything for me and my siblings, she always went above and beyond to make sure we had whatever we wanted, she always protected us, maybe sometimes a little too much.my and my siblings are her whole world she's in a time in her life where she deserves to have us take care of her and make sure she is happy so when I imagine ctbing it's just me being so cruel to her, after everything she's done and sacrificed this is how I pay her back, it just kills me.
I hate the universe and what I really don't understand is why people, good people like slot of us on this site, why we have to suffer so much, what did we do to deserve this
