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Most people would say yes but is it a trick to keep us reincarnating on this planet to be slaves or is the light and reincarnation our only and best option? To me and many others there is more than than completing suicide. What do we do after we complete? Another member made a similar post days ago but I can't find it.
I've experienced things others may have not. Nde, light and dark entities, remembering past lives, and other things that you can't chalk up as chance. Anyone else had experiences that can't be explained but make life difficult because it opens up more possibilities? It all gets overwhelming. So much of what we are taught is a lie. So to get back to it..do we go to the light?
Interesting read on this topic here.
I'm curious how you all will experience this post. There are a lot of us who have had experiences that think about what is beyond death. For me I am focused on completing my final act of suicide. It takes much focus on complete distraction to actually get it done. Well..I won't know your views until I post this. Here goes.
 
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If reincarnation isn't a choice, I would have no choice to "follow the system" and reincarnate. If reincarnation is a choice, I still would choose to come back. Because, I still feel "unsatisfied" with the way my current life turned out. It's like ending a game with a "game over" screen, I want to try again and "win the game" in the next playthrough.

If the Universe "conspired" against us to keep us "stuck in the loop", honestly I haven't really thought much from that perspective. I always had this belief that the Universe is governed by some sort of benevolent system. The angels and spirit guides exist simply for our own good. So, whatever "system" that those entities maintained should be a benevolent system as well.

I seriously hope I am not wrong with my assumption. If not, I would feel totally "betrayed" and devastated.
 
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If reincarnation isn't a choice, I would have no choice to "follow the system" and reincarnate. If reincarnation is a choice, I still would choose to come back. Because, I still feel "unsatisfied" with the way my current life turned out. It's like ending a game with a "game over" screen, I want to try again and "win the game" in the next playthrough.

If the Universe "conspired" against us to keep us "stuck in the loop", honestly I haven't really thought much from that perspective. I always had this belief that the Universe is governed by some sort of benevolent system. The angels and spirit guides exist simply for our own good. So, whatever "system" that those entities maintained should be a benevolent system as well.

I seriously hope I am not wrong with my assumption. If not, I would feel totally "betrayed" and devastated.
Nice response. Wow. Well, I have experienced things and found knowledge that made me second guess the pure benevolence, but I too feel I will go to the light and who knows maybe I'll be offered a chance to be a spirit guide and won't come back in a human body. We won't know until we experience it. I just know that this joke of a lifetime is over. I opt out. I feel that suicide was planned as a high probability in this lifetime. I hear other people's stories and wish mine wwas that simple. Not simple but I shared one piece of the thousands on here and a girl said I had the best reason to ctb she had seen just from her knowing one thing.
I appreciate your open mind. Thank you very much.
 
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I dont know if you will believe this; I still have trouble with my nihilistic beliefs even after this... but on my 4th hanging attempt I seen a light and a figure in a T pose; I held my hand out to the air and was laughing, I felt a wind like thingy?... haha touch my hand, but maybe I am crazy, what is odd to me is I didnt feel or see this my last 4 attempts. have only recently looked into religion, but am still sceptacle... I cant tell if this was a dellusion or not, I had my eyes closed , and figure was to my right and rest of area/ background was black.
 
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Nice response. Wow. Well, I have experienced things and found knowledge that made me second guess the pure benevolence, but I too feel I will go to the light and who knows maybe I'll be offered a chance to be a spirit guide and won't come back in a human body. We won't know until we experience it. I just know that this joke of a lifetime is over. I opt out. I feel that suicide was planned as a high probability in this lifetime. I hear other people's stories and wish mine wwas that simple. Not simple but I shared one piece of the thousands on here and a girl said I had the best reason to ctb she had seen just from her knowing one thing.
I appreciate your open mind. Thank you very much.

I can't really say I'm an "open mind" person, lol. New Age spirituality is the only thing I find "acceptable" due to its nature of "freedom of interpretation" and lack of judgment. My assumption regarding spirit guides, they seem to be a pro choice entities. From my last psychic reading I had, my guides said they respect my choice to ctb if I intend to stop this incarnation, while still reminding me that there are still more joy in life for me to take.

I found those messages to be coming from place of wisdom and non-judgment. That's why, at least, I think our Universe is governed by benevolent system.
 
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this scene scares me a lot,what if this spirits are real in the afterlife

 
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I dont know if you will believe this; I still have trouble with my nihilistic beliefs even after this... but on my 4th hanging attempt I seen a light and a figure in a T pose; I held my hand out to the air and was laughing, I felt a wind like thingy?... haha touch my hand, but maybe I am crazy, what is odd to me is I didnt feel or see this my last 4 attempts. have only recently looked into religion, but am still sceptacle... I cant tell if this was a dellusion or not, I had my eyes closed , and figure was to my right and rest of area/ background was black.
I believe you. I've had things happen most wouldn't believe but fuck, they happened. Interesting. I wonder if it was only that one time you got close to death so you experienced the light and possibly a spirit guide. Religion hasn't taught me much but spirituality has. My own experiences trip other people out. They scare the crap out of me.
Funny you say you were laughing. Thank you for sharing friend.
I can't really say I'm an "open mind" person, lol. New Age spirituality is the only thing I find "acceptable" due to its nature of "freedom of interpretation" and lack of judgment. My assumption regarding spirit guides, they seem to be a pro choice entities. From my last psychic reading I had, my guides said they respect my choice to ctb if I intend to stop this incarnation, while still reminding me that there are still more joy in life for me to take.

I found those messages to be coming from place of wisdom and non-judgment. That's why, at least, I think our Universe is governed by benevolent system.
Yes, I agree with your spirit guides. I bet there is joy. My guides don't talk to me anymore. There is nothing left for me in this body. Best wishes to you.
this scene scares me a lot,what if this spirits are real in the afterlife


I love that you shared this. Thank you. It makes skin crawl doesn't it?
 
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I believe you. I've had things happen most wouldn't believe but fuck, they happened. Interesting. I wonder if it was only that one time you got close to death so you experienced the light and possibly a spirit guide. Religion hasn't taught me much but spirituality has. My own experiences trip other people out. They scare the crap out of me.
Funny you say you were laughing. Thank you for sharing friend.

Yes, I agree with your spirit guides. I bet there is joy. My guides don't talk to me anymore. There is nothing left for me in this body. Best wishes to you.

I love that you shared this. Thank you. It makes skin crawl doesn't it?
Thank you so much for believing me; I am a little drunk, so only time I can open up lol; was anxious I was gonna get insulted; anyways I thought to myself maybe this is a sign of something I have been asking for my whole life? maybe thats why i only got it this once, I feel if it was a dellusion I wouldve got it everytime, but idk.
 
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I believe you. I've had things happen most wouldn't believe but fuck, they happened. Interesting. I wonder if it was only that one time you got close to death so you experienced the light and possibly a spirit guide. Religion hasn't taught me much but spirituality has. My own experiences trip other people out. They scare the crap out of me.
Funny you say you were laughing. Thank you for sharing friend.

Yes, I agree with your spirit guides. I bet there is joy. My guides don't talk to me anymore. There is nothing left for me in this body. Best wishes to you.

I love that you shared this. Thank you. It makes skin crawl doesn't it?

You´re very welcome! and yeah when i think about ctb.i always have in mind this scene,i just hope there´s no dark spirits in the afterlife
 
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Thank you so much for believing me; I am a little drunk, so only time I can open up lol; was anxious I was gonna get insulted; anyways I thought to myself maybe this is a sign of something I have been asking for my whole life? maybe thats why i only got it this once, I feel if it was a dellusion I wouldve got it everytime, but idk.
It sucks when other people judge what we say. Yes, I've had others tell me they've had experiences like that. I was walking at night and had a being walk toward me in a tunnel of light from the moonlight. So I've had similar experiences too. I don't know your reasons to ctb but how comforting to have had that experience.
What happened? How Did you become conscious after that?
 
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It sucks when other people judge what we say. Yes, I've had others tell me they've had experiences like that. I was walking at night and had a being walk toward me in a tunnel of light from the moonlight. So I've had similar experiences too. I don't know your reasons to ctb but how comforting to have had that experience.
What happened? How Did you become conscious after that?
I am rather prideful? Asking for help is something I dont really enjoy I guess... So I told them they didnt have to help me... now that I havent felt them since, I regret it; I told myself next time I would do it I wouldnt be shy.... well that "next time" didnt happen and all I seen last few attempts was a weird fuzzy light, but nothing inside. I untied noose and went to bed... and tried again next day lol. didnt work obviously.
It sucks when other people judge what we say. Yes, I've had others tell me they've had experiences like that. I was walking at night and had a being walk toward me in a tunnel of light from the moonlight. So I've had similar experiences too. I don't know your reasons to ctb but how comforting to have had that experience.
What happened? How Did you become conscious after that?
Also it is unfortunate so many liars exist... because of them, it may be hard to trust one another. I believe you, for what its worth.
 
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You´re very welcome! and yeah when i think about ctb.i always have in mind this scene,i just hope there´s no dark spirits in the afterlife
I believe we are shown tons of love and healing in the afterlife. I do believe dark can mess with us in human bodies especially us on SS feeling so down. I have been really damaged by dark.
I think Once in spirit we are shown how amazing we really are and taken to a place of healing to recharge. We will see when we leave these bodies. I hope I'm right. Thank you again.
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I am rather prideful? Asking for help is something I dont really enjoy I guess... So I told them they didnt have to help me... now that I havent felt them since, I regret it; I told myself next time I would do it I wouldnt be shy.... well that "next time" didnt happen and all I seen last few attempts was a weird fuzzy light, but nothing inside. I untied noose and went to bed... and tried again next day lol. didnt work obviously.

Also it is unfortunate so many liars exist... because of them, it may be hard to trust one another. I believe you, for what its worth.
You didn't know. Just because you didn't receive help that day doesn't mean you can't ever.
Yeah, I agree about liars. I am going to ctb next Tuesday mostly because of an evil manipulating liar who framed me for a violent felony. I have been torn down by this and many other things by evil people. I can't do partial. I back out. I've backed out of full too but once rope is around neck this time I plan to tighten another piece of rope so I pass out and hang. I hope my guides will help me complete Tuesday. I need this so bad. Where do you live? I'm in CA USA
 
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Illusions by dying brain might be pretty. But it will be just that. An illusion. Not to mention people from different religions/cultures experience it differently. Just give me oblivion and that will have suffice.
 
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Illusions by dying brain might be pretty. But it will be just that. An illusion. Not to mention people from different religions/cultures experience it differently. Just give me oblivion and that will have suffice.
I agree. People with different views experience it differently. Oblivion is what I wish for you friend. It is what you desire so it shall be.
 
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I believe we are shown tons of love and healing in the afterlife. I do believe dark can mess with us in human bodies especially us on SS feeling so down. I have been really damaged by dark.
I think Once in spirit we are shown how amazing we really are and taken to a place of healing to recharge. We will see when we leave these bodies. I hope I'm right. Thank you again.
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You didn't know. Just because you didn't receive help that day doesn't mean you can't ever.
Yeah, I agree about liars. I am going to ctb next Tuesday mostly because of an evil manipulating liar who framed me for a violent felony. I have been torn down by this and many other things by evil people. I can't do partial. I back out. I've backed out of full too but once rope is around neck this time I plan to tighten another piece of rope so I pass out and hang. I hope my guides will help me complete Tuesday. I need this so bad. Where do you live? I'm in CA USA
I am in TN, USA, and I am very sorry for what has happened to you.
 
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I agree. People with different views experience it differently. Oblivion is what I wish for you friend. It is what you desire so it shall be.

If not then we will see. If afterlife doesnt offer me what I want then oblivion it is.
 
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If not then we will see. If afterlife doesnt offer me what I want then oblivion it is.
Yes we will see. For me anything is better than this though. I wish I could report back from beyond but that doesn't work so well. Goodnight.
Thank you, right back at you!
Your state is beautiful. I walked through it in 2016. So pretty. That wildfire happened that year.
 
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Yes we will see. For me anything is better than this though. I wish I could report back from beyond but that doesn't work so well. Goodnight.

Your state is beautiful. I walked through it in 2016. So pretty. That wildfire happened that year.
Yes very beautiful, I am rather privellaged to live in the south; even if it is the city. hmmm... I somehow barely remember this fire...
 
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I am in TN, USA, and I am very sorry for what has happened to you.
I love going through parts of Tennessee... We aren't to far apart. I'm in SC.
 
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Yes we will see. For me anything is better than this though. I wish I could report back from beyond but that doesn't work so well. Goodnight.

Your state is beautiful. I walked through it in 2016. So pretty. That wildfire happened that year.
I was interviewed on the Grand Ole Opry station the day after the CMAs. Oh well. Goodnight.
 
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Yes very beautiful, I am rather privellaged to live in the south; even if it is the city. hmmm... I somehow barely remember this fire...
It was the major wild fire that destroyed Gatlinburg, and thousands of acres.... It was like 2 years ago.
 
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Yes very beautiful, I am rather privellaged to live in the south; even if it is the city. hmmm... I somehow barely remember this fire...
The place where people have vacation homes. There had been a draught. Gatlinburg.
 
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Heh. No dark side for me.

Nah, I walked 9 states promoting firefighters. It was amazing. I was hosted by 59 fire stations. I'm a woman. I'm 42. It's late where you are. Night.
It's only just after midnight here. I got my whiskey keeping me occupied!
 
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Heh. No dark side for me.

Nah, I walked 9 states promoting firefighters. It was amazing. I was hosted by 59 fire stations. I'm a woman. I'm 42. It's late where you are. Night.
Wow, 9 states? That sounds very interesting, it is late but insomnia says otherwise ;)