Venting Getting so frustrated and angry during this time of isolation

[bpdandme]

I hate being around my family, I am so different to them. I'm so tired of them but they won't give me any space. They are so ignorant, constantly making racist or homophobic remarks out of ignorance and not willing to educate themselves. I hate being in such a narrow minded household of people who don't understand mental health and constantly try to push me to get a reaction for their entertainment. I don't want to hear their right wing propaganda anymore or them constantly giving me grief over having depression. I can't get away and suicide is my only option. I think they will be relieved they don't have to deal with me anymore .

 

[PrettyMoose]

I understand. I come from a similar background. I just stay away from them as much as possible to hold on to what little sanity I have left.

 

[bpdandme]

I understand. I come from a similar background. I just stay away from them as much as possible to hold on to what little sanity I have left.

I'm sorry you go through the same. I am not even allowed to close my door, have to eat dinner with them and constantly have them invade my privacy because they believe it's their right - I am 23.

 

[PrettyMoose]

I'm sorry you go through the same. I am not even allowed to close my door, have to eat dinner with them and constantly have them invade my privacy because they believe it's their right - I am 23.

That's definitely a sucky situation, not being able to close your door is crazy. I'd say close it anyway and fuck 'em if they don't like it. You have a right to your own basic privacy.

I'm a bit older than you and have had to move back with family. I've gotten into the habit of sleeping during the day and being awake at night. I come out at night when no one is around to get my needs met and then I disappear again before sunrise. They are alcoholics and as long as I stay out of their sight then I'm out of their minds, they won't try to talk to me. I've learned that from a young age, but when I was younger they stayed up all night all the time too so they were less easy to avoid. Now that they are old alcoholics they tend to pass out fairly early.

 

[bpdandme]

That's definitely a sucky situation, not being able to close your door is crazy. I'd say close it anyway and fuck 'em if they don't like it. You have a right to your own basic privacy.

I'm a bit older than you and have had to move back with family. I've gotten into the habit of sleeping during the day and being awake at night. I come out at night when no one is around to get my needs met and then I disappear again before sunrise. They are alcoholics and as long as I stay out of their sight then I'm out of their minds, they won't try to talk to me. I've learned that from a young age, but when I was younger they stayed up all night all the time too so they were less easy to avoid. Now that they are old alcoholics they tend to pass out fairly early.

Damn that sounds awful! I really can't shut my door or it'll cause arguments, it's a very toxic household. Sympathise with you having to move back somewhere that causes you pain. Here if you need a chat!

 

[LADY007]

I hate being around my family, I am so different to them. I'm so tired of them but they won't give me any space. They are so ignorant, constantly making racist or homophobic remarks out of ignorance and not willing to educate themselves. I hate being in such a narrow minded household of people who don't understand mental health and constantly try to push me to get a reaction for their entertainment. I don't want to hear their right wing propaganda anymore or them constantly giving me grief over having depression. I can't get away and suicide is my only option. I think they will be relieved they don't have to deal with me anymore .

I know how you feel, bpdandme... I married someone 12 years older than I who has 2 children in their fifties who will be attacking me for money when he passes away even though I was very generous to them. High probability that will happen in the next three years and my only sibling, a brother, has been jealous of me all our life and will not see me. I will not be here for that circumstance of being victimized.

 

[FireFox]

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I'm sorry you go through the same. I am not even allowed to close my door, have to eat dinner with them and constantly have them invade my privacy because they believe it's their right - I am 23.

Hello I am 22 and I new to this forum. I live in the UK.

My family are traditional whereas as a liberal femininst who not afraid to challenge thier beliefs.

Home for some people can be absolute hell espically if there no privacy.

Anyway you have a friend in FireFox and you can talk to me anytime you want.

I am pretty much lonely. My relationship with my family is Ok but they never listen and so judgemental when it comes to mental health. They believe depression is a first world problem. I pretend i am ok as it so much easier

I wish i had a older sibling as i will have someone to guide me

I got a younger sister who is 12 but cant talk to her about my sucidial thoughts.

Here my tips
1) In your room just keep yourself busy with things you normally enjoy.
2) Crazy idea- You could get a job ( supermarkets, warehouse)or maybe voluntary work to keep yourself away from home.
3) Watch less news trust me it has improved my mood a lot

 

[restforeternity]

Right wing left wing fuck it all.

 

[FireFox]

Right wing left wing fuck it all.

True i am not really on a poltical specturm.
I am mixture of both libertarian and anarchistic views as well as being a feminist

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I really can't shut my door or it'll cause arguments, it's a very toxic household.

I've thought about this comment several times today. I came from a toxic household, and I just want to say, your closing the door and claiming your basic right to privacy is not what will cause arguments. Their toxic and irrational reactions are what will cause arguments.

I know there's no easy solution, I get how hard this is. But you have to have something or you're going to cease existing, both figuratively and literally.

Can you close the door, put a chair under the door handle, and record them on the other side of the door? Threaten to post on YouTube their yelling and screaming on the other side when it kicks in?

You've got to have *some* power in this situation. Is there anything they don't want the world to know that you can use as leverage to get them to back off? Bullies lose a lot of power when it gets taken away from them, and when less fucks are given. They can go on ranting until they run out of breath, they lose power when it pings off. Unless they turn physically violent, then it's another issue, and another comment.

 

[bpdandme]

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Hello I am 22 and I new to this forum. I live in the UK.

My family are traditional whereas as a liberal femininst who not afraid to challenge thier beliefs.

Home for some people can be absolute hell espically if there no privacy.

Anyway you have a friend in FireFox and you can talk to me anytime you want.

I am pretty much lonely. My relationship with my family is Ok but they never listen and so judgemental when it comes to mental health. They believe depression is a first world problem. I pretend i am ok as it so much easier

I wish i had a older sibling as i will have someone to guide me

I got a younger sister who is 12 but cant talk to her about my sucidial thoughts.

Here my tips
1) In your room just keep yourself busy with things you normally enjoy.
2) Crazy idea- You could get a job ( supermarkets, warehouse)or maybe voluntary work to keep yourself away from home.
3) Watch less news trust me it has improved my mood a lot

Thank you Fire Fox!

My family also don't understand mental health, I was told my suicide attempts are a "cry for help" and "I'm just pretending to be depressed" and that I "want a mental illness".

I can be an older sibling to you - feel free to confide in me.

I do have a job! I get so exhausted all I want to do is recharge in my room but I can't recharge without my family not allowing me privacy. I watch the news everyday and check it constantly so I will take your advice, thank you so much!

Right wing left wing fuck it all.

Sorry, I'm going to have to disagree here. Politics affects peoples lives. Austerity kills people in my country and a racist and homophobic prime minister insights hatred towards minority groups and refugees. I will always speak up for the most vulnerable in society, to have people who are completely opposite to this and are openly sexist, homophobic and racist is very tiring for me. I also feel completely misunderstood in my household and I am outcasted for this.

I've thought about this comment several times today. I came from a toxic household, and I just want to say, your closing the door and claiming your basic right to privacy is not what will cause arguments. Their toxic and irrational reactions are what will cause arguments.

I know there's no easy solution, I get how hard this is. But you have to have something or you're going to cease existing, both figuratively and literally.

Can you close the door, put a chair under the door handle, and record them on the other side of the door? Threaten to post on YouTube their yelling and screaming on the other side when it kicks in?

You've got to have *some* power in this situation. Is there anything they don't want the world to know that you can use as leverage to get them to back off? Bullies lose a lot of power when it gets taken away from them, and when less fucks are given. They can go on ranting until they run out of breath, they lose power when it pings off. Unless they turn physically violent, then it's another issue, and another comment.

Thank you for thinking of me and my circumstance. I wish I could close my door, as an introvert and someone who gets BPD rage - privacy is essential for my mental health. If I put a chair or lock against my door, my family would cause greater arguments and call me names. They don't understand the premise of privacy at all. Even when working from home they would purposely come in when I'm on work calls and start arguments with me, I ask them to leave me alone and my door is shut for a reason and it's still no use. I get told I have an attitude.