Getting more desperate

[Jolene40]

Hi all, as most who know me here know I'm very unwell with multiple illnesses which are progressing by the week. I would do anything to try arrest the progression of the neuropathy which is now so bad I can hardly function. My brain function is severely affected as the neuropathy rips through my head and face and cranial nerves.
My post is to say that I worry if I took my life that local media would cover it, they'd get it wrong and downplay the severity of all my illnesses like so many doctors tried to do. My little boy would then be stuck with the awful legacy of mum just being weak and depressed. It matters to me that attempts by absolute idiots to downplay my suffering will be left to inform my legacy. One of my horrid conditions is a genetic one I was born with. Its the associated conditions that are destroying me. However, i know my son also has this inherited condition. If I end my life and he realises he has this condition also I'm devastated for him and what it will do mentally. He's only 6 and already has anxiety. He has seen so much sickness I want it over for everyone's sake not just mine.
God help me. I wish I could do something to stop this destroying me like this. I'm hanging on for dear life but I also don't have any method I think I could carry out either.
Does every suicide result in an inquest?

 

[reveriewong]

I am praying for you and your son.

 

[pole]

awful situation you're in, hope things turn around for you and you get better somehow and wish you're son all the luck in the world as well c:

 

[Blackjack]

Hi all, as most who know me here know I'm very unwell with multiple illnesses which are progressing by the week. I would do anything to try arrest the progression of the neuropathy which is now so bad I can hardly function. My brain function is severely affected as the neuropathy rips through my head and face and cranial nerves.
My post is to say that I worry if I took my life that local media would cover it, they'd get it wrong and downplay the severity of all my illnesses like so many doctors tried to do. My little boy would then be stuck with the awful legacy of mum just being weak and depressed. It matters to me that attempts by absolute idiots to downplay my suffering will be left to inform my legacy. One of my horrid conditions is a genetic one I was born with. Its the associated conditions that are destroying me. However, i know my son also has this inherited condition. If I end my life and he realises he has this condition also I'm devastated for him and what it will do mentally. He's only 6 and already has anxiety. He has seen so much sickness I want it over for everyone's sake not just mine.
God help me. I wish I could do something to stop this destroying me like this. I'm hanging on for dear life but I also don't have any method I think I could carry out either.
Does every suicide result in an inquest?

I can very much relate to your feelings of desperation as your condition progresses. I am going through something similar with my own debilitating terminal disease that is slowly killing me while my 16-yo son watches helplessly. I don't have an answer to your inquest question, I just wanted you to know that you are not alone. These feelings of intense desperation are terrifying, and I wish so badly that I could just simply go to sleep and not wake up.

 

[Jolene40]

I can very much relate to your feelings of desperation as your condition progresses. I am going through something similar with my own debilitating terminal disease that is slowly killing me while my 16-yo son watches helplessly. I don't have an answer to your inquest question, I just wanted you to know that you are not alone. These feelings of intense desperation are terrifying, and I wish so badly that I could just simply go to sleep and not wake up.

I read a few of your posts and realised you must be suffering immeasurably yourself. It is so cruel and horrific x