hi all. i hope you're all doing well. posting a dumb rant here, so please feel free to scroll on by if you don't want any negativity.
i've been working on recovering for a couple years now. ever since i started, people have told me how much better i look, how much fun i am to be around, how glad they are i've opened up, &c., &c. i got into a professional program and even managed to find a girl who's willing to put up with me (at least for now haha). by all metrics, life is looking up.
recently, though, there've been rumors of a bit of a cheating scandal at school with the first-year class that have really gotten in my head. a few people got answers to a test early and sent them their whole class through the school email, as my mentee in the class told me. for something so egregious at a school that prides itself on its reputation for professionalism, you'd think that there would be some sort of punishment for that, but there's been nothing. effectively nothing has happened. one of the ringleaders, who had a full scholarship, is even keeping said scholarship. i get why administration would be so hush-hush about it, but it's very frustrating for some reason.
since it happened, i've lost a lot of the motivation i had for this career and life in general. my feelings are petty and stupid, but there are people that get away with things like that in all parts of life. something as small as this that i'm not involved in whatsoever shouldn't be affecting me this much, but seeing people like that piss all over (pardon my French) the opportunity we've been given and not have any consequences for their actions gets to me. it's worse because admin lectures pretty often about reputation being everything and how you ought to conduct yourself honorably in all facets of life to reflect positively on the profession. i wouldn't mind so much if they'd drop the pretense and say, "we think you should do whatever it takes to get ahead, and damn the ethics."
i dunno. it's got me all in my head, and i probably didn't articulate the problem very well. it's just incredibly frustrating to try living (somewhat) morally when being brazenly unscrupulous is rewarded. anyway, like i said, it's a very minor thing that i'm real caught up on lately. thank you for reading, and i hope you all have a good day!
i've been working on recovering for a couple years now. ever since i started, people have told me how much better i look, how much fun i am to be around, how glad they are i've opened up, &c., &c. i got into a professional program and even managed to find a girl who's willing to put up with me (at least for now haha). by all metrics, life is looking up.
recently, though, there've been rumors of a bit of a cheating scandal at school with the first-year class that have really gotten in my head. a few people got answers to a test early and sent them their whole class through the school email, as my mentee in the class told me. for something so egregious at a school that prides itself on its reputation for professionalism, you'd think that there would be some sort of punishment for that, but there's been nothing. effectively nothing has happened. one of the ringleaders, who had a full scholarship, is even keeping said scholarship. i get why administration would be so hush-hush about it, but it's very frustrating for some reason.
since it happened, i've lost a lot of the motivation i had for this career and life in general. my feelings are petty and stupid, but there are people that get away with things like that in all parts of life. something as small as this that i'm not involved in whatsoever shouldn't be affecting me this much, but seeing people like that piss all over (pardon my French) the opportunity we've been given and not have any consequences for their actions gets to me. it's worse because admin lectures pretty often about reputation being everything and how you ought to conduct yourself honorably in all facets of life to reflect positively on the profession. i wouldn't mind so much if they'd drop the pretense and say, "we think you should do whatever it takes to get ahead, and damn the ethics."
i dunno. it's got me all in my head, and i probably didn't articulate the problem very well. it's just incredibly frustrating to try living (somewhat) morally when being brazenly unscrupulous is rewarded. anyway, like i said, it's a very minor thing that i'm real caught up on lately. thank you for reading, and i hope you all have a good day!
