Help Getting by until CTB

[Livingvsdying25]

I know i will be going sometime next year. All I've wanted for a long time.

In the meantime tho i dont want to do anything. Im not interested in doing anything. I no longer want to force myself to do things empty.
I maintain the basics to get by but that's all i want/can do.

I reach out to friends and such time to time but i still am not at all interested in life.

So how to get by in the meantime... Day to day is honestly killing me. It's like a low-grade pain that i just barely somehow manage. Feel so alone smd just bored but overall uninterested. Very unengaged.

 

[R_N]

I am in similar position but I don't really reach out that much and I avoid socialising, rejecting my friends irl. I feel like life already ended and I am still here for no reason. I can't relate to normal people anymore, I feel worse surrounded by them because they are reminding me how hopeless my situation is.

 

[TearyEyedQueen]

I feel the same, all I want to do is sleep. I haven't felt alive since very long ago. Nothing can make me happier. Music is beautiful but depression completely blocks that beauty out, so every song I once loved sounds bland and boring now. Colours are all dull. Even sruff that would have once been an indication of hope doesn't work anymore, such as hanging out with colleagues and socializing with peers, although I still reach out as much as I can.
Coping mechanisms are exhausted.
I'm not sure what I'll do until july, study I guess but it's just so hopeless and I have no energy anymore.
I'm already done with life, I'm ready to become one with the Nothingness.

 

[Flume]

I know i will be going sometime next year. All I've wanted for a long time.

In the meantime tho i dont want to do anything. Im not interested in doing anything. I no longer want to force myself to do things empty.
I maintain the basics to get by but that's all i want/can do.

I reach out to friends and such time to time but i still am not at all interested in life.

So how to get by in the meantime... Day to day is honestly killing me. It's like a low-grade pain that i just barely somehow manage. Feel so alone smd just bored but overall uninterested. Very unengaged.

I don't know how I will make it to Februari, which is my new date after things went to shit with a plan I had... feels like it's a decade away. Every day is just so unbearably painful I don't know what to do.

 

[mediocre]

I have alienated everybody and sleep mostly. It's good practice before death.