Hi all, first time poster after viewing for a couple months so apologies if anythings repetitive as I don't have the search function yet.
Firstly I want to thank this site and members as it's been comforting hearing many stories from people who feel similarly and having a place to discuss without judgement. With all the knowledge I've gained here and elsewhere, I still have a few questions and am interested in opinions. As per the rules of this site - I am in charge of my decisions, opinions will not be taken as encouragement. I feel like my SI will be too strong anyways when the time comes. I read a post where someone said that once they have everything lined up and are certain it will work, it reduces the anxiety because they can do it whenever and that's the place I'm at right now hence these questions just for peace of mind.
I've chosen hanging as my method simply for the reason of convenience. Like many I live where SN and guns are hard to come by, OD's rarely work and I wouldn't be able to get anything anyways, I don't have the knowledge or equipment for gasses, CO poisoning in the garage isn't certain to work in my scenario, anything else seems impossible.
I've read megathreads and many stories on hanging, I think I'm knowledgeable enough on the basic technical aspects/risks to do it right, so here's my questions that I haven't come across yet:
-The rope I have is 3/8" braided nylon. Is this too thick/thin? What are the pros/cons of a rope too thick/thin? I believe it's 50 feet, is there a way to tie either the anchor or noose end with the excess or would I have to cut it to length.
-I would like to go in my home but there are no anchor points. I live near many forests but don't trust that I won't pick the wrong tree plus am unsure of the privacy. The only place I can think of with good anchor points is at my workplace where I can get in after hours. My concerns are that I don't want to traumatize coworkers when found. I planned on putting signs on doors that say "deceased inside, do not enter, call emergency services" but the problem is they would need employee keys to gain access to the couple options of rooms I'm thinking of. I'm also worried that someone will see the sign before enough time has passed, as well as sometimes there's a night cleaning crew - but I'm sure there's one room they never enter. My best options are structural ceiling beams or a welded ladder to a wall, pros/cons to either?
-Are there pros/cons if the anchor point isn't too high up but just enough to be off the ground? More risks or same situation no matter how far apart the anchor and noose is?
-What are things you should do in daily life leading up to it to make the process easier for family. I plan on leaving notes to eliminate as much grief as possible, send money to some friends and leave the rest to family and tell them to use it for my funeral, give instructions on where to give possessions. I plan on leaving passwords and other info they might need but I feel like I'm missing some big things when it comes to this.
-My big question is making sure someone gets to me after the right amount of time so my family has my body and I'm not MIA for long. I can't call emergency services on my own beforehand for timing, my only idea is scheduling a text to a friend hours after the fact telling them to call, I just don't want to traumatize a friend like that. Other option is a coworker seeing the signs on the door the next day, same concern.
Would love to hear your thoughts. Thanks for the piece of mind.
Firstly I want to thank this site and members as it's been comforting hearing many stories from people who feel similarly and having a place to discuss without judgement. With all the knowledge I've gained here and elsewhere, I still have a few questions and am interested in opinions. As per the rules of this site - I am in charge of my decisions, opinions will not be taken as encouragement. I feel like my SI will be too strong anyways when the time comes. I read a post where someone said that once they have everything lined up and are certain it will work, it reduces the anxiety because they can do it whenever and that's the place I'm at right now hence these questions just for peace of mind.
I've chosen hanging as my method simply for the reason of convenience. Like many I live where SN and guns are hard to come by, OD's rarely work and I wouldn't be able to get anything anyways, I don't have the knowledge or equipment for gasses, CO poisoning in the garage isn't certain to work in my scenario, anything else seems impossible.
I've read megathreads and many stories on hanging, I think I'm knowledgeable enough on the basic technical aspects/risks to do it right, so here's my questions that I haven't come across yet:
-The rope I have is 3/8" braided nylon. Is this too thick/thin? What are the pros/cons of a rope too thick/thin? I believe it's 50 feet, is there a way to tie either the anchor or noose end with the excess or would I have to cut it to length.
-I would like to go in my home but there are no anchor points. I live near many forests but don't trust that I won't pick the wrong tree plus am unsure of the privacy. The only place I can think of with good anchor points is at my workplace where I can get in after hours. My concerns are that I don't want to traumatize coworkers when found. I planned on putting signs on doors that say "deceased inside, do not enter, call emergency services" but the problem is they would need employee keys to gain access to the couple options of rooms I'm thinking of. I'm also worried that someone will see the sign before enough time has passed, as well as sometimes there's a night cleaning crew - but I'm sure there's one room they never enter. My best options are structural ceiling beams or a welded ladder to a wall, pros/cons to either?
-Are there pros/cons if the anchor point isn't too high up but just enough to be off the ground? More risks or same situation no matter how far apart the anchor and noose is?
-What are things you should do in daily life leading up to it to make the process easier for family. I plan on leaving notes to eliminate as much grief as possible, send money to some friends and leave the rest to family and tell them to use it for my funeral, give instructions on where to give possessions. I plan on leaving passwords and other info they might need but I feel like I'm missing some big things when it comes to this.
-My big question is making sure someone gets to me after the right amount of time so my family has my body and I'm not MIA for long. I can't call emergency services on my own beforehand for timing, my only idea is scheduling a text to a friend hours after the fact telling them to call, I just don't want to traumatize a friend like that. Other option is a coworker seeing the signs on the door the next day, same concern.
Would love to hear your thoughts. Thanks for the piece of mind.
