Here i am. Got my ass into so much debt that my only way out is my life insurance. There's no other way around, i just can't let people i love deal with the stress i cause them. I can't help it, i keep gambling everything away, i lie to people i love. Also got myself in debt with really bad people... I chose hanging as my method. i'll do it in about a few minutes in a wooded area. I don't want my body to be found next year tho. I thought i'd write down coordinates that are close enough to the place i'll pick on my suicide note. Been reading this forum and really helped me rationalize things. I wish you all the peace you deserves.
I can relate. Huge debt because of bipolar mania and cryptocurrency. If you wanna chat I can share with you what's up.
I'm so sorry life has brought you to this point. I actually think it's awful how much people are encouraged to gamble these days. There are adverts on all the time.
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 7,264
I'm sorry that life brought you to this point. I hope you find peace! Safe travels and good luck!
Did you read this guide?
sanctioned-suicide.net
Trees to use for hanging - from a tree expert
This thread is ONLY for those who 1) must do partial/full suspension hanging, and 2) can only resort to using a tree. I was a professional tree climber and trimmer for 5 years, i trimmed/felled trees away from powerlines all over Wyoming, Utah and Idaho. Just thought id give my best insights...
sanctioned-suicide.net
Thank you so muchDid you read this guide?
Trees to use for hanging - from a tree expert
This thread is ONLY for those who 1) must do partial/full suspension hanging, and 2) can only resort to using a tree. I was a professional tree climber and trimmer for 5 years, i trimmed/felled trees away from powerlines all over Wyoming, Utah and Idaho. Just thought id give my best insights...
attheend13
Member
- Oct 1, 2023
- 63
I'm so sorry that life brought you to this moment. I get it. I hope you find peace and freedom. Peaceful travels.
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 7,264
Thank you!
I just got to the spot. Im looking for the right tree. Its far from the end i would have imagined for me not so long ago.
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Life has a lot of moving parts involved and when they start breaking down and you keep just maintaining them when there are no new parts available your just prolonging the inevitable collapse.
I hope you can find peace, if it's any consolation I'll be joining you within the month.
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 7,264
Yeah, I don't think most people in their younger years envision themselves ending up where we are. I know I didn't.
maniac116
My own worst enemyš¹š
- Aug 10, 2024
- 328
Im sorry life has brought you to this point & hope you have a peaceful & painless transition
I think i am ready now. Everything's set up. I programmed a message text for tomorrow 5 am that'll share my current location. I just hope that it'll send even if my phone die since i dont have much battery left. Thank you guys i appreciate your kind words. Gooodbye.
nir
26/F/Canada
- Aug 18, 2024
- 135
If the attempt doesn't work, don't feel bad about coming back here - we'll welcome you with open arms.
If it did work, I hope you found peace. Gambling is such a cruel invention, made to prey upon people who have addictive personalities. I hate how widespread it is. I am so angry that there are so many people who have taken their lives because of it. What a waste in the name of profit.
I'm sorry to see you this pained. I hope you find the solace you seek. Please come back if something happens and you don't move to the next realm. Peace to you and yours. 
Marco77
Ć ma maniĆØre šŖ¦
- Aug 18, 2024
- 92
I hug you tightly. I wish I had already done it. I hope you find the peace you deserve.
Dont do that. The insurece will may not pay If you die by suicide. Go and get help. You'r family needs you more than the Money.
max_vader2
Member
- Aug 27, 2024
- 18
Wait...
DOES YOUR LIFE INSURANCE COVERS SUICIDE?
because, in my knowledge, insurance companies put a clause against death by suicide, so your loved ones would get nothing
DOES YOUR LIFE INSURANCE COVERS SUICIDE?
because, in my knowledge, insurance companies put a clause against death by suicide, so your loved ones would get nothing
wildflowers1996
Arcanist
- Oct 14, 2023
- 462
I'm sorry you're suffering so much
are you still here? I'm not saying not to do it, but I just want to make sure you've explored all your options first
there are organisations giving free financial and debt advice. self exclusion schemes, blocking software, bank merchant blocking. depending on your location possibly free therapy plus lots of online / in person recovery groups. there are ways to help protect your money in future. you could have a trusted person help manage or look after your money for you
also in the uk we have organisations like "stop loan sharks"
are you still here? I'm not saying not to do it, but I just want to make sure you've explored all your options first
there are organisations giving free financial and debt advice. self exclusion schemes, blocking software, bank merchant blocking. depending on your location possibly free therapy plus lots of online / in person recovery groups. there are ways to help protect your money in future. you could have a trusted person help manage or look after your money for you
also in the uk we have organisations like "stop loan sharks"
I'm sorry you've found yourself in this situation. Gambling addiction really needs destigmatising, it's treated about the worst of all addictions at this point. I suppose because of the effect it so often has on other people. In the chance you didn't go though with CTB I really hope you can get help. You should probably come clean to your family and let someone else take control of your finances so you can't gamble anymore. They will probably be mad as hell but in the long run it's better to tell them now than have them find out later when you've gambled even more. Like a PP said, there are a lot of tools to prevent you from gambling and people who can give you debt advice. I'm so saddened you felt like CTB was your only way out of this 
