Fuuuuucckk

[BurningLights]

God fucking damn it, I can't believe this, after all that went down last night, to be picked up, and now my worst nightmare has come true (partly the reason I was gonna ctb last night) Jesus fucking Christ, soneone is fucking with me I swear, WHY IS THIS FUCKING HAPPENING TO ME???

I've been moved to a different benefit group, one where I get a jell of lot less money, I'm gonna be living off something like 10 quid a week. I had fucking hopes, hopes for Christmas, hopes that I could buy my daughter presents this year, hopes that I had just a bit longer, but no it all gets fucking taken away, FUCK FUCK FUCK. SOMEONE PLEASE JUST GIVE ME A GUN, JUST LET ME BLOW MY FUCKING BRAINS OUT

 

[Nofaith]

DWP?

 

[Chinaski]

DWP?

Amazing how many pro-lifers actually vote for a Tory government who implements these harmful policies.

 

[BurningLights]

Yep,

DWP?

I'm fucked, just seen the thread on the night night method. Looks very tempting right now.

 

[Nofaith]

Amazing how many pro-lifers actually vote for a Tory government who implements these harmful policies.

It's a way of culling all the undesirables or those who are not deemed "economically viable."
You only have to look at the number of deaths that have occurred since PIP and UC were introduced.

 

[fuckthis]

Damn I'm sorry dude, hope whatever happens you're able to work something out regardless of what you decide to do.

 

[BurningLights]

It's a way of culling all the undesirables or those who are not deemed "economically viable."
You only have to look at the number of deaths that have occurred since PIP and UC were introduced.

Exactly what I was thinking, they fucking knew how many times I tried, fucking cunts man.

 

[Fucking loving it]

It's hard when kids are involved.... no money and the thought of leaving them behind.

 

[BurningLights]

Damn I'm sorry dude, hope whatever happens you're able to work something out regardless of what you decide to do.

Cheers man, this is driving me mad, don't know where to go like, I'm wondering what it will be like to they that night night method straight after hitting some DMT ? Gotta be an alright way to go no?

 

[BurningLights]

It's hard when kids are involved.... no money and the thought of leaving them behind.

It's such a fucked situation, the way I see it, I will fight the decision, bit until I get a response, I will prepare to ctb before the end of the month (before all my bills and rent are due)

 

[AndyCurious]

Sorry to hear BurningLights

 

[Nofaith]

It's such a fucked situation, the way I see it, I will fight the decision, bit until I get a response, I will prepare to ctb before the end of the month (before all my bills and rent are due)

I'd say appeal but it's a long gruelling process and when I say long, I mean months.

 

[BurningLights]

Sorry to hear BurningLights

Hey Andy, cheers man

 

[AndyCurious]

Hey Andy, cheers man

Cheers :)

 

[BurningLights]

I'd say appeal but it's a long gruelling process and when I say long, I mean months.

Fuck, well I've got a plan then, I get some money Monday and Tuesday, that should be enough to buy a ratchet strap to do the night night method, and also enough to buy through equipment to make DMT. Will do it right before I tighten the ratchet. I've had good luck blocking the carotid when practising, I have a lot of faith in this nn method. Once I get, everything, I will extract the DMT, have a bit of fun, then when I'm ready, lights out. That should take a week or so..

 

[TiredHorse]

Jesus H Fucking Christ. As if you didn't have enough shit thrown at you.

I'm really sorry, man.

 

[BurningLights]

Jesus H Fucking Christ. As if you didn't have enough shit thrown at you.

I'm really sorry, man.

I fucking know right! Goddamn, I've made my mind up, posted my plan above. Seems pretty sound. Was freaking out earlier but kinda alright now. Still, fuck you universe!! Unless this was meant for me all along :/

 

[worldexploder]

Damn that sounds horrible. Sorry you're going though all this. Queen Elizabeth II, someone who gets millions of dollars from the government just for being born to "royalty", would be against the right to die even though the government in the UK made your life harder to live.

 

[TiredHorse]

BTW, what's "DWP"? I don't know the acronym.

Why the hell can't people just accept that some of us want to leave?

 

[Nik]

BTW, what's "DWP"? I don't know the acronym.

Why the hell can't people just accept that some of us want to leave?

Department for Works and Pensions. UK welfare.

 

[TiredHorse]

Right. It's HHS, over here: Health and Human Services. Not necessarily humane services, though.

Thanks, Nik.

 

[Ashpac]

That sucks burning lights. Weve talked a few times and shared some interesting PM's regarding methods.

I wish i could have DMT like you mention, that sounds like a good way to go out.

 

[Noone]

Hugs to you burninglights. You deserve better. All of you here do. If I ended it I would be leaving my nephew behind who is essentially my whole world and the thought of doing that to him and my parents and the rest of my immediate family rips my heart out. So here I am. Behold, life, the ultimate trap.

 

[Schopenhauer]

I'm sorry man. You got me there when you talked about your daughter. Society sucks, unless you fit their mold. They don't want us to die, but they like to make us live on our knees.

I hope you find a way out.

 

[dman12009]

Cheers man, this is driving me mad, don't know where to go like, I'm wondering what it will be like to they that night night method straight after hitting some DMT ? Gotta be an alright way to go no?

What is the night night method

 

[LostitAll]

What is the night night method

I was wondering that myself.
There's a megathread posted
here on this method.

 

[bigj75]

I was wondering that myself.
There's a megathread posted
here on this method.

Yae its my method of choice. Fairly painless and cheap. Read the thread and see if it's right for you.

 

[longingforrelease]

I'm sorry BurningLights. I relate to the kid thing. It's starting to dawn on me that even though I've found a new teaching position here in Thailand I don't make enough to be able to fly my daughter here for visits. And she is my last reason for living.

 

[Final Escape]

God fucking damn it, I can't believe this, after all that went down last night, to be picked up, and now my worst nightmare has come true (partly the reason I was gonna ctb last night) Jesus fucking Christ, soneone is fucking with me I swear, WHY IS THIS FUCKING HAPPENING TO ME???

I've been moved to a different benefit group, one where I get a jell of lot less money, I'm gonna be living off something like 10 quid a week. I had fucking hopes, hopes for Christmas, hopes that I could buy my daughter presents this year, hopes that I had just a bit longer, but no it all gets fucking taken away, FUCK FUCK FUCK. SOMEONE PLEASE JUST GIVE ME A GUN, JUST LET ME BLOW MY FUCKING BRAINS OUT

Oh that's heartbreaking :("

 

[Armadillo]

I'm really sorry, when you think it probably can't get any worse you find out that life has always a surprise for you, and at times, a really bad one.

Gonna use a similar method:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/ligature-strangulation-method-seems-pretty-good-to-me.7634/

I wish I had some DMT to smoke while I tighten the ligature. I can't even imagine what I would see/feel. Definetly an original and interesting way to go