I feel I need to ctb soon, possibly and the most reliable method available to me is full suspension (I'll likely also use a plastic bag to make double sure) but I am too scared to take the step because I'm afraid of pain. No, this does not mean I'm not ready to CTB, I just have a fear of pain (and vomiting which is why I won't use SN. It's definitely not as peaceful as PPeH makes it out to be.)
If I take benzos beforehand and they make me drowsy or disorientated, how likely do you think it would be I'd stumble off the chair? I'd definitely get the bag closed around my neck but how likely do you think it would be I'd end up hanging? (I would also secure hands behind my back right after taking benzos so I don't do something weird like try to take the noose off while under the influence.)
If I take benzos beforehand and they make me drowsy or disorientated, how likely do you think it would be I'd stumble off the chair? I'd definitely get the bag closed around my neck but how likely do you think it would be I'd end up hanging? (I would also secure hands behind my back right after taking benzos so I don't do something weird like try to take the noose off while under the influence.)
