Fucking hate my SH scars

[hurts2b]

I have visible self harm scars all over me. Ugly as hell. I hate that can't just exist in short sleeves. As a 14/yo I didn't give a shit about the idea of permanence.

Now I'm dealing with the fallout. I'm going to read as "mentally ill" forever so long as I don't make an effort to cover it up.

I don't even want to live much longer. But like. SH scars cost (even small) opportunities in a way that's hard to articulate.

In a personal sense, it just really sucks.

 

[p49CwWzD]

I feel you. It's something that's been on my mind a lot recently since the place where I live hits 90+ degree temperatures for half the year, and it's just not practical to wear long sleeves most of the time.

For a little bit, I didn't give a shit and would wear what I wanted with confidence. I catch people staring every single time I go out in public, but for a while it didn't bother me. I've been feeling more self conscious lately, maybe because I'm pushing 30 and it's not as "permissible" as when I was a teenager, or maybe just because I've been going through a rough patch in general. But maybe it's possible to reach that level of confidence again.

 

[Misanthrope0000]

I have visible self harm scars all over me. Ugly as hell. I hate that can't just exist in short sleeves. As a 14/yo I didn't give a shit about the idea of permanence.

Now I'm dealing with the fallout. I'm going to read as "mentally ill" forever so long as I don't make an effort to cover it up.

I don't even want to live much longer. But like. SH scars cost (even small) opportunities in a way that's hard to articulate.

In a personal sense, it just really sucks.

I started self harming when I was 14 and I'm 21 now, still do, just not as much and yeah they fucking suck, I thought I'd be okay with it not until I keep overhearing people gossiping about my scars and being so judgmental, I'm like fuck do I need to hide my arms forever just to avoid potential bullying especially in places like school/work??

 

[hurts2b]

I started self harming when I was 14 and I'm 21 now, still do, just not as much and yeah they fucking suck, I thought I'd be okay with it not until I keep overhearing people gossiping about my scars and being so judgmental, I'm like fuck do I need to hide my arms forever just to avoid potential bullying especially in places like school/work??

Same age as you minus a year. Dealt with a similar situation in the past. I'm too isolated (currently) to fully feel the full impact yet.

I get it though. Other people's gossiping is unavoidable. It's really hard to think about forever that way. Yet the consequences really are forever.

I get you. It's exhausting....

I feel you. It's something that's been on my mind a lot recently since the place where I live hits 90+ degree temperatures for half the year, and it's just not practical to wear long sleeves most of the time.

For a little bit, I didn't give a shit and would wear what I wanted with confidence. I catch people staring every single time I go out in public, but for a while it didn't bother me. I've been feeling more self conscious lately, maybe because I'm pushing 30 and it's not as "permissible" as when I was a teenager, or maybe just because I've been going through a rough patch in general. But maybe it's possible to reach that level of confidence again.

I had to look up the conversion (to c°) for the temp. Holy hell I would not survive.