Fucking christmas is here

[lunargreenx]

That horrible time of the year when you realize you're all alone is here again.

Nothing against christmas but - Small talk, horrible time spent with "family", getting dirty money from abusive parents, getting presents from people that don't like me, realizing you hate everybody and everybody hates you and afterwards getting drunk in the bathtub during night from the sadness of all of it - is really not for me.

I love christmas. I don't want gifts, but I could use someone to love and spend time with. That would be gift enough.

 

[UiopQwerty]

Yes....
Its awful.

 

[AutoTap]

Yeh Christmas makes my mental health worse from the stress of having to socialize and try to act okay.

 

[symphonyofthenight]

God yes, what @AutoTap said. Cause holy fuck. I am so anxious & depressed and then having to see so many people. They're all going to be loud. They're all going to ask me if I'm okay, or how I'm doing. They're going to judge how much I eat (and if I don't) despite me saying I'm sick. I'll be guilted into eating if I don't do so. Guilted into eating more. Acting like I'm fine.

And this is going on for four days. It's too much. Xmas eve, xmas, then the weekend. I have to act fine for 4 days and it is literally making me freak the fuck out just thinking about it.

 

[sadworld]

I used to love christmas but now I honestly hate it...

 

[Disco Biscuit]

I'm spending Christmas on my own. It's so depressing.

Then New Year's Eve and then my birthday. Spending them alone again. My life is so tragic I've not even had a birthday text from anyone in the last few years. I used to get a birthday card from my mum before she died.

 

[UiopQwerty]

I'm spending Christmas on my own. It's so depressing.

Then New Year's Eve and then my birthday. Spending them alone again. My life is so tragic I've not even had a birthday text from anyone in the last few years. I used to get a birthday card from my mum before she died.

Me too,
Im divorced since september this year. My neighbour called me yesterday asking if I would spend
christmas with her, (Old woman 76 yrs old.) Why not?

 

[Disco Biscuit]

Me too,
Im divorced since september this year. My neighbour called me yesterday asking if I would spend
christmas with her, (Old woman 76 yrs old.) Why not?

That's really lovely of your neighbour. It sounds like she is looking for some company herself so she isn't alone at Christmas.

 

[UiopQwerty]

That's really lovely of your neighbour. It sounds like she is looking for some company herself so she isn't alone at Christmas.

Exactly...
Shes a nice person... When I go down to the pub she always buy me a beer,

 

[Bigpink]

I used to have a family so Xmas was in some of those years joyous and celebratory. Now I don't give a crap, will watch sport, Netflix and eat noodles, so not all bad.

 

[UiopQwerty]

I used to have a family so Xmas was in some of those years joyous and celebratory. Now I don't give a crap, will watch sport, Netflix and eat noodles, so not all bad.

Noodles? I like that too,,,

 

[Mentalmick]

I get extremely jealous and bitter seeing all the supposed happy people everywhere. Especially on TV.

 

[stygal]

For me the hardest part about Christmas is the socializing while being "fake happy" and "fake agreeing" with my family. Sometimes it even changes to getting blamed for not turning out the way they wanted me to be. That's honestly just crushing me everytime...because I'm never courageous enough to give a good counterargument.

If I could spend Christmas on my own I'd be a thousand times more relaxed but although wouldn't celebrate it at all.

I used to like the atmosphere, the decorations and the foods but even this is kind of slipping away and leaving me with nothing to look forward to.

So yeah: Fuck Christmas.

 

[disabledlife]

I have always hated Christmas because I know that not everyone can enjoy it, there are people alone, rejected by society or their family because they are disabled, orphans, people born under x (childbirth under the secret that exists in France). A party should only exist if everyone can enjoy it. And then there are people who can not eat, move, etc. After Christmas there is the New Year with the same injustice. I've known a city that has a rotten mentality and destroyed my childhood, my life. I happily moved. This city has a facebook group for discussions between locals that sometimes ends in fights, harassment. The city does everything to censor and hide the truth about its mentality. There was one person asking that they could spend Christmas without being alone, the others laughed at him and harassed him. So yes Christmas should not exist under these conditions.
France invented mother's day and then Father's day and grandmother's day. The origins of these festivals come from vichy France during the Second World War. These parties should not have existed because they are not parties for deserving parents. There are bad parents, mistreating, violent, or not doing their jobs, or exploiting their children. The other problem is also that there are children orphaned or born under x.
Sorry for this bad English.

 

[NeverGoodEnuff]

The perfect holiday season for me would to be go to sleep the Monday before Thanksgiving (end of Nov) and wake up New Year's Day.

An acquaintance today asked about getting together on Christmas. I declined. Told her I just can't do it anymore. Maybe NYE. Hated to turn her down because she is alone, too. She does have other friends so hopefully she will be with them.

 

[Nymph]

I hate family gatherings:(

 

[user667]

i hate christmas. im lucky to have a family and enough money, but it is so miserable. my mom is a neurotic control freak who will flip out if one thing goes wrong so i have to pretend to be super happy to not ruin it for her. last christmas she yelled at me for ruining christmas with my mental health problems even tho i had attempted a week before. and presents are the most depressing part. its so disgusting and materialistic and makes me feel worse because i feel like i dont deserve any of it. and it makes me so sad because im expecting some of them to make me happy and excited and i just get disappointed not because the presents arent good but because im so depressed nothing can make me happy.

 

[Hurt]

One word: CONSUMERISM

 

[Meditation guide]

It's just another day.

 

[demuic]

These are the only times I'm glad my family is so dysfunctional because we don't even pretend to get together and get along for Christmas or any holiday.

 

[Miss_Takes]

It is Xmas Eve where I am 6.08pm ... i pray it will be over soon .. but I know I have a few days to endure.
I will be alone and glad to be so except that I shall miss my daughter (adult) but she will hopefully be happy with friends.
If I had the means I would CTB tonight. Today has been frightening for me and I am tired of being afraid.

 

[Ghost2211]

I used to love Christmas. Now it's spending money I don't have, and not being able to provide my kids the fairytale Christmas. Oh, and the best part is all the songs, shows, and movies about loving happy families and couples that I don't have.

 

[Bigpink]

For me the hardest part about Christmas is the socializing while being "fake happy" and "fake agreeing" with my family. Sometimes it even changes to getting blamed for not turning out the way they wanted me to be. That's honestly just crushing me everytime...because I'm never courageous enough to give a good counterargument.

If I could spend Christmas on my own I'd be a thousand times more relaxed but although wouldn't celebrate it at all.

I used to like the atmosphere, the decorations and the foods but even this is kind of slipping away and leaving me with nothing to look forward to.

So yeah: Fuck Christmas.

 

[grungeCat]

Yes! Finally someone understands. I do realise that many people here thinks the same but you actually wrote that and made me feel understood. Fucking Christmas, while I'm sad & alone. And it's all for fucking god that doesn't exist.

 

[DocNo]

ignoring christmas for over 25 years now - in the last years it became some kind of christmas habit to watch "dredd" and "the raid 2". it's somehow a christmas can kiss my azz message ^^

just the right movies for this quiet time of the year. don't mess with mama and the hammergirl!

 

[Deleted member 24006]

Lots I could write on this topic, but instead I'll just say my response is a mixed combination of all-the-above posts. Over soon .......

 

[lunargreenx]

I don't mind consumerism of the christmas because that's how it should be. In fact, the present you get speaks about the people that buy them for you. For me, I learn that everything under the wrapping paper is the reflection of the buyer's expectation of you. I would love to get something simple, but meaningful one day, like a kiss.

Of all the holidays I love the New Year's Eve the most.

I like the symbolism. Chance to start fresh. And for people like us it can have whole new meaning.

 

[whywere]

I totally agree. I HATE the "holidays" or Christmas. I have no family or friends. With covid right now I can not believe people traveling around. I live in a cold climate and we just had a major snow storm and temps are 20 below zero fahrenheit right now, so I can not even go out side. This time of year SUCKS period.

 

[Varstraben]

Christmas it's a stupid kind to see people I don't like, I'm preparing to go to visit my racist family tonight, offer them present even if I don't like them because it's in the usage, get stupid things I don't like like cup and socks (my cupboard is full of coffee cups still packed from previous years), smile like an hypocrite and just stay like a pillar next to the table while they debate about politic and immigration.

But this year my grandpa is very weak and most of us think he will not be here anymore next year, and he is the only I like to see in this stupid day, so I go for him and if anyone try to make him stress to get his legacy earlier (usual family thing), I will destroy this crap so hard that it will make this day funny. I wonder which one will attempt this tonight, but I'm sure they will be at least one.

 

[WornOutLife]

Yeah, seeing all people with normal families and relationships happy makes me jealous. Well, I don't give a damn about society anymore so, does it really?
Anyway, I'm spend this (last for me) Christmas with my lovely dad and dog and my mentally sick mother. Hope we have some nice time together.