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I don't know anything
- Jul 5, 2019
- 333
To think I had SN and all the extras and didn't put it to use... what was I thinking? That if enough time passes, I'd become okay with existing somehow? I know I'm just grasping at straws because I'm upset and shouldn't blame myself but I still don't get it. So much tedium, pain, despair and indignity I could've spared myself and others. Not the people in my life then, the people I've met since. How does one cling to something that disgusts them so much? I've only gotten worse since then, I'm a shell. This can't end soon enough...