magician99
Member
- Jun 11, 2023
- 97
Fuck it all. I'm so done with all of it. I hate these stressful work obligations and family obligations. The education system is literally the modern version of the slavery system. Not only are you born against your will, but you don't get to choose your parents and environment. You are FORCED to go to school for 12 years, spending your childhood and teenager years with learning how to be a slave of society, and then you are FORCED to work for what, 50 years until you reach old age and look and move around like a old fuck. You can't tell me that that isn't slavery. A kid has no choice in the matter, even if they don't want to go to school, they are forced to by their parents, and even if a adult doesn't want to work, they are forced to, otherwise they can't afford the bare minimum, like food, water, and a place to live in. There is no any freedom in any of this. What's worse is, that even if you are a kid who wants to go to school, school can and will STILL ruin you due to bullies, horrible teachers, etc.
I tried. I really did. I spend most of my childhood in fear of my parents but I tried hard at school to achieve big things in life, but I couldn't even do that because for some reason I attract misery and abusers. The good grades I achieved at school didn't matter AT ALL. My entire being got cursed with severe depression to the point I couldn't sleep and cry anymore, and was constantly sick due to the abuse of my parents at home and bullies at school. My grades became worse and worse and none of my teachers noticed anything nor seemed to care that something was obviously going on with me. I didn't want to come to school anymore so I just didn't for a while. Even after getting a job, even after moving out of my abusive household to a apartment, there is nothing in this life that is worth living for. The damage has already been made. My mind has been filled with suicide thoughts for over a decade now, I can't imagine feeling any other way anymore. Everything just seems so fake to me and I despise social media for that. Literally the only big social media sites I'm willingly using are Facebook, Instagram, and Youtube. But I haven't been using any of these for years. I only use Youtube sometimes to listen to a few songs of Queen, Youtube has otherwise also gotten trash. I hate Youtube shorts with a burning passion. Not just that, Youtube is also blocking and/or banning people who are using Adblockers. You'll have to get Youtube Premium or else you're forced to go through horrendous ads before a video even starts playing. Also, Tiktok is the WORST. I hate everything about it. The Logo, the videos, it's like a gathering of slow-minded, cringy slaves of society. I've seen apes show more intelligence than the people who use that sorry excuse of an app.
I'm just tired. It's not like any of this matters. It shouldn't bother me since I'm planning to ctb, and yet it does bother me, because I don't understand why working 40 hours a week is normalized. And even after going through school and getting a job, I can't look at the education system as anything other than a system that brainwashes kids into becoming slaves of society who have to work for the rest of their lives or else they die a slow death on the streets due to starvation.
Maybe if I was born under good parents who loved and appreciated me for who I was, it wouldn't have never come to this in the first place, but life clearly isn't fair.
I tried. I really did. I spend most of my childhood in fear of my parents but I tried hard at school to achieve big things in life, but I couldn't even do that because for some reason I attract misery and abusers. The good grades I achieved at school didn't matter AT ALL. My entire being got cursed with severe depression to the point I couldn't sleep and cry anymore, and was constantly sick due to the abuse of my parents at home and bullies at school. My grades became worse and worse and none of my teachers noticed anything nor seemed to care that something was obviously going on with me. I didn't want to come to school anymore so I just didn't for a while. Even after getting a job, even after moving out of my abusive household to a apartment, there is nothing in this life that is worth living for. The damage has already been made. My mind has been filled with suicide thoughts for over a decade now, I can't imagine feeling any other way anymore. Everything just seems so fake to me and I despise social media for that. Literally the only big social media sites I'm willingly using are Facebook, Instagram, and Youtube. But I haven't been using any of these for years. I only use Youtube sometimes to listen to a few songs of Queen, Youtube has otherwise also gotten trash. I hate Youtube shorts with a burning passion. Not just that, Youtube is also blocking and/or banning people who are using Adblockers. You'll have to get Youtube Premium or else you're forced to go through horrendous ads before a video even starts playing. Also, Tiktok is the WORST. I hate everything about it. The Logo, the videos, it's like a gathering of slow-minded, cringy slaves of society. I've seen apes show more intelligence than the people who use that sorry excuse of an app.
I'm just tired. It's not like any of this matters. It shouldn't bother me since I'm planning to ctb, and yet it does bother me, because I don't understand why working 40 hours a week is normalized. And even after going through school and getting a job, I can't look at the education system as anything other than a system that brainwashes kids into becoming slaves of society who have to work for the rest of their lives or else they die a slow death on the streets due to starvation.
Maybe if I was born under good parents who loved and appreciated me for who I was, it wouldn't have never come to this in the first place, but life clearly isn't fair.
