Fuck it, we ball (attempting tonight)

[Don’tDoxMe]

Tune in at 10 pm central tonight as I live post my attempt with the tourniquet method. (I know it takes some time with my last attempt with it)

 

[sadwriter]

Best of luck and I hope that you find peace. I'm sorry that life has brought you to this place.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Best wishes and peace and love on your journey.

 

[kateve]

Wish you get the peace you want <3

 

[Liminal1]

I hope you find peace

 

[avaruus]

Good luck, i hope you succeed. :)

 

[Gonnerr]

Good luck, i hope you escape peacefully.

 

[Clasrink]

Damn, best of luck to you

 

[Don’tDoxMe]

I'm scared that I'll fail, I'm scared that I'll succeed. I would have liked to have lived a full life, but I calculated that this would be the best move with the least suffering. I wish I could have waited until my fursuit was done, but oh well

 

[avaruus]

I'm scared that I'll fail, I'm scared that I'll succeed. I would have liked to have lived a full life, but I calculated that this would be the best move with the least suffering. I wish I could have waited until my fursuit was done, but oh well

Do you want me to give you my opinion of your method? I can, if you just want to.

 

[Don’tDoxMe]

Do you want me to give you my opinion of your method? I can, if you just want to.

Yes, I'd like to hear it

 

[Blurry_Buildings]

I'm scared that I'll fail, I'm scared that I'll succeed. I would have liked to have lived a full life, but I calculated that this would be the best move with the least suffering. I wish I could have waited until my fursuit was done, but oh well

Is there a reason you can't wait until your fursuit is done? Idk what a fursuit is but if you are afraid you will succeed you might want to give it a little more time (and maybe complete this fursuit), so that you can be absolutely sure you are ready. Pardon me for saying so but it sounds mildly like this could be a spur of the moment thing. Ideally I feel like you would want to be at the point where you know it is the best option and maybe are afraid of the method (or failure) but aren't afraid of succeeding.

Either way, I hope you find the result you most desire and hope all goes well.

 

[avaruus]

Yes, I'd like to hear it

I think that the tornique method is very unreliable. I've only heard bad about it.
I once saw a man CTB in a livestream with that method, and it sounded and looked very very uncomfortable.
Not to fearmonger or scare you, but it's just my honest opinion that, even tho the tornique / night-night method sounds much simpler and less scary method than for example a partial hanging, in reality. It's much more unreliable, complicated and very possibly more uncomfortable.

But, this is just my opinion. And i'm not saying that it's impossible to have a peaceful passing with this method.

I just hope you know this method thoroughly, and you know what you're doing.
I wish you well and goodluck!

 

[Don’tDoxMe]

Is there a reason you can't wait until your fursuit is done? Idk what a fursuit is but if you are afraid you will succeed you might want to give it a little more time (and maybe complete this fursuit), so that you can be absolutely sure you are ready. Pardon me for saying so but it sounds mildly like this could be a spur of the moment thing. Ideally I feel like you would want to be at the point where you know it is the best option and maybe are afraid of the method (or failure) but aren't afraid of succeeding.

Either way, I hope you find the result you most desire and hope all goes well.

Because it's going to take months, and I can't take this for that long. I know this seems spur of the moment, and choosing to do it tonight is. But I've been chronically suicidal all my life, and it gets worse as I age because I'm getting older without accomplishing anything.

I think that the tornique method is very unreliable. I've only heard bad about it.
I once saw a man CTB in a livestream with that method, and it sounded and looked very very uncomfortable.
Not to fearmonger or scare you, but it's just my honest opinion that, even tho the tornique / night-night method sounds much simpler and less scary method than for example a partial hanging, in reality. It's much more unreliable, complicated and very possibly more uncomfortable.

But, this is just my opinion. And i'm not saying that it's impossible to have a peaceful passing with this method.

Thanks for your opinion. That's the conclusion I've come to after exploring this site too, but I'm choosing to try it anyway because I'm trying to leave a less traumatic body for my dad to find. I'm hoping that the Ativan and alcohol help things along. I'm also hoping that if I don't die, I'll end up with brain damage for certain reasons

 

[DearAgony]

Hoping for a smooth escape for you. I'm sorry that life has brought you here. I failed a partial hanging yesterday and I'm hoping that fate is kinder to you. Best wishes and farewell.

 

[confusedmess120]

Tune in at 10 pm central tonight as I live post my attempt with the tourniquet method. (I know it takes some time with my last attempt with it)

good luck. hope it goes smooth.

 

[Some place nice]

I wish you luck and a peaceful and.

 

[XdragonsoulX]

Wishing you safe travels to your journey to the other side

 

[Don’tDoxMe]

Taking the Ativan and alcohol now, will start the tourniquet once they've kicked in. Ugh, I LOATHE the taste of alcohol, I don't know how anyone drinks this shit by choice. Also put on my Music To Die To playlist

 

[leavingsoon99]

If you're serious, I wish you luck and peace. Farewell.

 

[Don’tDoxMe]

It's not going to work. I'm going to need rope again, because what I have now is too thin. I wish I had just followed through last time when it was actually working. Sorry guys. I get paid next week, so I'll try again once I get the rope. (My dad took away the rope from my last attempt.)
I'm going to cut up a shirt and give it one more go before I give up
Oh yeah, this is going to work a lot better
I think I might pass out soon

 

[ABSOLUTION]

I'm going to cut up a shirt and give it one more go before I give up
Oh yeah, this is going to work a lot better

Be careful, that sounds very unreliable!
It might seem workable. But if it breaks before you properly die, you could get brain damage!

 

[Don’tDoxMe]

Be careful, that sounds very unreliable!
It might seem workable. But if it breaks before you properly die, you could get brain damage!

I'm actually perfectly fine with that for reasons

 

[ABSOLUTION]

Alright... Best of luck, I hope it goes well. Sorry to hear you've gotten to this point.

 

[Don’tDoxMe]

Just can't do it guys. It's way too slow to be acceptable. I'm sorry that I failed. Maybe the benzos and alcohol fucked me up in some way at least. Onto the psych hospital I guess. I'm sorry for being a coward. I would just hang if I didn't care about my dad being traumatized. I'm so sorry.

 

[134340]

Please, please do not be sorry. You have nothing to be sorry for and you're not a coward. Living is a hard choice too. I hope your experience in the hospital is a positive one and that you find some relief from what has been plaguing you. Sending you love. I'm sorry you're suffering.

 

[lucyna]

Just can't do it guys. It's way too slow to be acceptable. I'm sorry that I failed. Maybe the benzos and alcohol fucked me up in some way at least. Onto the psych hospital I guess. I'm sorry for being a coward. I would just hang if I didn't care about my dad being traumatized. I'm so sorry.

don't be sorry for not being able to do it. it's okay, you're not a coward. i hope you're able to find some ease to your suffering from the hospital

 

[colorlesshue]

your not a coward, i sincerely hope everything works out and best wishes to you. you're such a brave, compassionate person and i hope the best for you in the future.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suicide just isn't straightforward after all so I don't believe that those who don't go through with it are cowardly, I find it cruel how people even have to resort to methods like that and cannot just easily leave this existence in peace in the first place. But anyway best wishes.

 

[Don’tDoxMe]

I'm out of the er now and going home. Will be doing an inert gas when I get paid unless something in my life changes by then