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livelaughlove
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- Nov 15, 2022
- 19
holy shit. I did the thing I promised I wouldn't do again. I opened up to a teacher. Like today was just too much and I went to him expecting to just have a casual light-hearted "how do you stay happy?" convo (because he's one of the most positive person I know and I've been really trying to be like him for the past few months). but no. I said that calm and all, but when i spoke another word I started bursting into tears. my god. I can control my emotions when I don't need/have to, but when I actually do need/have to I can't control them. It was a good talk though. I didn't think I'd ever open up to him like that much ever. But obviously he has to tell the higher ups (people in charge of student welfare) and that was fine because they already know. I've gone through this before. But now it's really hitting me. Like I really went into detail this time. Fuck. Everyone's had this totally different image of me this year because of how much differently I presented myself (happy and living life). They all believed that I was a whole different person and didn't have these thoughts. And it was great. No one worried about me. Now I've just ruined it again..
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