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Ineedtodie

Ineedtodie

Shame, Avoidance, hopelessness, lonliness, cbt, pm
Nov 9, 2022
401
10 feels like the world have no place for you
 
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ShuttingDown

Member
Nov 6, 2022
47
Beyond 10
 
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Ineedtodie

Ineedtodie

Shame, Avoidance, hopelessness, lonliness, cbt, pm
Nov 9, 2022
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Wannabehappy

Wannabehappy

Member
Nov 29, 2022
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9. Only because I still have a job. If it wasn't for that, I might as well throw my phone away, turn it on in six months, and I doubt I'll have a single message. Whether I'm sick or writhing in pain, whether I'm going home safe or not - I'm alone in this. But, I get used to it.
 
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Ineedtodie

Ineedtodie

Shame, Avoidance, hopelessness, lonliness, cbt, pm
Nov 9, 2022
401
9. Only because I still have a job. If it wasn't for that, I might as well throw my phone away, turn it on in six months, and I doubt I'll have a single message. Whether I'm sick or writhing in pain, whether I'm going home safe or not - I'm alone in this. But, I get used to it.
I feel you.Hope this doesn't sound insentive but hope you keep your job anyway.
 
murphyy

murphyy

yeehaw
Nov 24, 2022
39
I'd say... 8 on a good day. Other than my closest family, there's no one that cares too much about me. Feels like I'm cursed with loneliness lol.
 
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Wannabehappy

Wannabehappy

Member
Nov 29, 2022
39
I feel you.Hope this doesn't sound insentive but hope you keep your job anyway.
Now, the only way I can help myself is to reach for the bottle. For me, it's a temporary relief while waiting for the SN. Few days left. I've been fighting panic attacks since yesterday, the only thing that calms me down is the thought "Just a moment, you'll last a little longer, the package will come and it'll be fine"
 
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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
Jul 1, 2020
7,031
Beyond 10
^ that

How lonely I feel? The only human contact I have is with my husband and he causes me stress more often then not. I have no family, no friends. I asked someone that I felt qualified for "feeling lonely" and he was like "yeah you are"

Socially alienated/judged? Everyone judges me. My husband, bf, strangers, "friends", family, myself.

In silence? I dont. I scream and cry and bash my head off walls. But at the same time I do. I only talk about half the problems going on. Sometimes they're repeats, sometimes I don't want to talk about it

I also agree with @Wannabehappy, I doubt I'd have a message wondering if I'm ok even though everyone (except my brothers and grampy) knows I'm not. I wouldn't hear from anyone if I didn't message first
 
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Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
905
10. I don't live alone but I feel lonely. Even when I'm with my friends.
 
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Ineedtodie

Ineedtodie

Shame, Avoidance, hopelessness, lonliness, cbt, pm
Nov 9, 2022
401
also agree with @Wannabehappy, I doubt I'd have a message wondering if I'm ok even though everyone (except my brothers and grampy) knows I'm not. I wouldn't hear from anyone if I didn't message
Same. That hurts and confuses me
. That worthless I think huh. Just my thought.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,397
In my case, I've never really had a problem specifically with loneliness. I've always preferred to be alone and have certainly seen it as being for the best. But if I was ranking how much I despise life and wish to be free from this world, it would be beyond 10. Literally every waking moment is spent wishing to be gone from this horrific, cruel world. It makes sense wishing to die as continuing to exist just leads to more suffering. There has never been anything here for me in this world, and there never will be.
 
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Silent.Tears

Silent.Tears

Experienced
Nov 5, 2021
282
Hahahah got brutally judged today..
10 ! Really there's no place for me at all in this big wide world. Suffering in silence indeed.
 
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Ineedtodie

Ineedtodie

Shame, Avoidance, hopelessness, lonliness, cbt, pm
Nov 9, 2022
401
Hahahah got brutally judged today..
10 ! Really there's no place for me at all in this big wide world. Suffering in silence indeed.
What was the judgement?
 
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Silent.Tears

Silent.Tears

Experienced
Nov 5, 2021
282
What was the judgement?
That I'm boring, I agree with them though. But agreeing doesn't make you less alienated from the society. Eh~well.
I hope and pray things will get better for you 🤗
 
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Cantbereal

Student
Mar 20, 2022
189
^ that

How lonely I feel? The only human contact I have is with my husband and he causes me stress more often then not. I have no family, no friends. I asked someone that I felt qualified for "feeling lonely" and he was like "yeah you are"

Socially alienated/judged? Everyone judges me. My husband, bf, strangers, "friends", family, myself.

In silence? I dont. I scream and cry and bash my head off walls. But at the same time I do. I only talk about half the problems going on. Sometimes they're repeats, sometimes I don't want to talk about it

I also agree with @Wannabehappy, I doubt I'd have a message wondering if I'm ok even though everyone (except my brothers and grampy) knows I'm not. I wouldn't hear from anyone if I didn't message first
This is me
 
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ollo

Member
Jul 4, 2021
89
Just at maximum on scale. My discomfort could be felt by some people
 
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sevenkarmas

Student
Oct 10, 2022
170
Probably a 9. Still have contact with co-workers and my mom texts me each night, I think to make sure I haven't done anything.
 
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Ineedtodie

Ineedtodie

Shame, Avoidance, hopelessness, lonliness, cbt, pm
Nov 9, 2022
401
That I'm boring, I agree with them though. But agreeing doesn't make you less alienated from the society.
Ouch, sorry we are so boring. We will try harder to be fun :)) please let me be your friend.
Wish you the best the world can offer ASAP.
asked someone that I felt qualified for "feeling lonely" and he was like "yeah you are"
I feel you. Now what!
 
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MatthewV3

MatthewV3

Student
Dec 15, 2021
107
I would say...maybe 7? The only people I'm talking with in real life are the members of my family. I don't have any friends in real life. I've got few Internet Friends but I have never met them in real life. And I also have a dog.
 
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PJS1995

Member
Oct 9, 2022
15
10. I only have 1 real friend. I've been socially isolating myself at work and I feel bad about it. I just don't have it in me right now though. I feel so empty inside.
 
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Mashedout

Mashedout

Student
Nov 25, 2020
126
8. Few people talk and think like me. Few are reaching for transcendence. Most are caught up in the distractions of this temporary experience. Complaining about they don't have this or that, like it really matters in a billion years when your bones are dust. The only thing I want it truth, and there is no path towards it here. Death is really the only thing that has a chance of giving us answers. I don't care about money, family, friends, possessions, status, legacy, pretty much anything this little game we're playing has to offer. I want out of the matrix.
 
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Silent.Tears

Silent.Tears

Experienced
Nov 5, 2021
282
Ouch, sorry we are so boring. We will try harder to be fun :)) please let me be your friend.
Wish you the best the world can offer ASAP.
Hahahahah, thanks for making this thread 🤗 I love ya
 
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SectOfValtiel

SectOfValtiel

Attendant of God
Nov 7, 2022
217
100

i dont think im capable of being loved
im not even capable of being remembered
nobody notices when im gone or when im there
nobody misses me, and i dont think anyone genuinely has in the past 5 years
nobody would say so if they did
im completely irrelevant and unimportant

even when i try my hardest to be socially active again, it just ends up feeling like im shouting into a void and hoping desperately that it answers back
but it never does

and now ive isolated for so long that i dont know how to stop it
i have no friends and it hurts so much to be alone
but i dont know if its better to feel that constantly increasing pain
or if its better to risk hurting someone again and being hurt as well
it doesnt matter, im too scared to try either way
i cant even get myself to leave the house anymore
all i can do is sit here missing people and crying over them
and hoping someone comes by and pulls me a little out of this hole ive dug

but i dont think thats going to happen again
 
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Ineedtodie

Ineedtodie

Shame, Avoidance, hopelessness, lonliness, cbt, pm
Nov 9, 2022
401
Just at maximum on scale. My discomfort could be felt by some people
That part really sucks! What can we do right!
even when i try my hardest to be socially active again, it just ends up feeling like im shouting into a void and hoping desperately that it answers back
but it never does
i really felt it there.
have no friends and it hurts so much to be alone
Sorry life can be that much lonely for alot of us.hang in there sending you love and respect.
 
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S like Siren

S like Siren

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,564
I relate to all of you...:(
For me it's 10 and even beyond 10.
I never felt i belong to this world,to my family etc...i feel completely alienated and judged even if i don't live alone but i feel incredibly alone...with a cold hole in my heart that never goes away.
 
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