Venting Friends

[Starfire]

I send my friends random messages just to actually convince myself I started a conversation. Just to convince myself I actually reached out, that I did not completely burn bridges after all, that I still have a sense of connection with them even in the tiniest bits of ways. Even when the truth is I've actually tried to forget about them, I've been actually trying to cut strings. And when they respond, I leave them on read.

I hate my duality.

I hate that I still care even if I don't really care. I hate that I wanna forget them but don't want them to think I completely did. I hate that I still love them.

I hate everybody but I also don't.

I'm so confused with myself and my feelings. That's also why I don't want to maintain relationships and connections because I'm 100% sure I'll end up confusing them, too. Lmao.

 

[Midgardsorm]

If only we could keep friendship alive forever without the need to keep in touch constantly. Or if our friends never stops sending messages, even though we don't answer...

 

[Celerity]

I'm sorry. Not trying to be mean, but you have to know that what you're doing is impolite at best and cruel at worst. You should really stop jerking people around. It's not great to be on the receiving end of this.

 

[Midgardsorm]

It wasn't ever in my intention to jerk people around. If it seems like that, on this thread on any other here, I apologize deeply.
I will watch what I will write from now on.

 

[chocolatebar]

If only we could keep friendship alive forever without the need to keep in touch constantly. Or if our friends never stops sending messages, even though we don't answer...

I have a friend who I only talk to about once a year, yet, we both consider each other a great friend. It's not impossible to have such relationships, but both people must be aware of that.

 

[Midgardsorm]

I have a friend who I only talk to about once a year, yet, we both consider each other a great friend. It's not impossible to have such relationships, but both people must be aware of that.

Its not impossible, but really rare, I think. One of the best person that ever talked to me in my whole life lived in Germany, very far from me. I don't even speak german, we used to speak in english, despite not being our native language.
It was brief, we chat ver few times and I those were the best memories that I have.

 

[Anonymous 4]

I send my friends random messages just to actually convince myself I started a conversation. Just to convince myself I actually reached out, that I did not completely burn bridges after all, that I still have a sense of connection with them even in the tiniest bits of ways. Even when the truth is I've actually tried to forget about them, I've been actually trying to cut strings. And when they respond, I leave them on read.

I hate my duality.

I hate that I still care even if I don't really care. I hate that I wanna forget them but don't want them to think I completely did. I hate that I still love them.

I hate everybody but I also don't.

I'm so confused with myself and my feelings. That's also why I don't want to maintain relationships and connections because I'm 100% sure I'll end up confusing them, too. Lmao.

Sounds like your a empath, be carful of the people that will be attracted to your energy, they normally ain't no good for you.

 

[overcomingfear]

Leaving on read isn't the best thing to do but i can understand. As long as you don't do it often its fine

 

[Lmd]

I send my friends random messages just to actually convince myself I started a conversation. Just to convince myself I actually reached out, that I did not completely burn bridges after all, that I still have a sense of connection with them even in the tiniest bits of ways. Even when the truth is I've actually tried to forget about them, I've been actually trying to cut strings. And when they respond, I leave them on read.

I hate my duality.

I hate that I still care even if I don't really care. I hate that I wanna forget them but don't want them to think I completely did. I hate that I still love them.

I hate everybody but I also don't.

I'm so confused with myself and my feelings. That's also why I don't want to maintain relationships and connections because I'm 100% sure I'll end up confusing them, too. Lmao.

If you love them is better to be aware of your limits and don't rush or fuck things what will make you feel worse. You are self sabotaging and you're not going to get anything good out of this, even if you think it's something you have to do.

If only we could keep friendship alive forever without the need to keep in touch constantly. Or if our friends never stops sending messages, even though we don't answer...

I thought this was the normal rule. People grow up and have their own lives. They can't keep in touch with everyone they met. I only talk daily with 2 people but that doesn't mean I forget the rest or they are less to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me it is too much effort to have friends. I am naturally introverted and I struggle with the commitment involved in maintaining friendships. It is hard work to me. I am no longer in contact with any of the friends I used to have for that reason. Of course I still cared for them though. I know it must be hard having to deal with the conflicting emotions.

 

[suisuiforum]

I don't care about how practically every research paper raves about the benefits of social interaction, talking to people in real life exhausts me more than I can express in words. I'm so sick of engaging in all the social rituals that society somehow agreed upon and meticulously planning my every word and move in order to gain even a smidgen of people's approval. Nowadays, I only message random strangers on the internet or post in threads like SS, and I'd be completely fine if I never have to speak to another human being in real life again. It looks like I'm on my way to that anyway, since I've burned plenty of bridges and still have tons of matches left.

 

[Anonymous 4]

For me it is too much effort to have friends. I am naturally introverted and I struggle with the commitment involved in maintaining friendships. It is hard work to me. I am no longer in contact with any of the friends I used to have for that reason. Of course I still cared for them though. I know it must be hard having to deal with the conflicting emotions.

Just wanna say I read your posts, and I really feel you are.sent from. Higher realm, your words and how u see life and feel.it, is very advanced, I think you came here my mistake, or you have a.important job to do, either way, your a different kind of human, and in a good way

 

[LastWhisper]

Oh, I can relate, it's the same for me. I have nothing to add on top of this, but it's really confusing a lot...