Eren

Eren

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Oct 27, 2018
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I feel quite alone and I only have a friend IRL (in real life) that I met during childhood, we both have a hard time socializing but we were always together, for quite some time it passes completely from me, it is sad to know that it only remained with me because I had no one more, when he met a few more friends we do not see each other in months.

In addition, the few times that we have stayed makes a mockery of my situation (no social contact) it is almost like bullying and it is annoying, it is sad.
 
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sif

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I don't think it's overrated, some of us just don't realise that we're not settling for real valuable friendships. Sorry you had that experience Eren, I'm so sorry.
 
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TAW122

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I too only had a childhood friend and he only stayed with me partly due to pity. When I entered college, that relationship waned and faded away. Ever since the last decade of my life, I've been lonely and friendless, with some acquaintances here and there. Given my situation now, I probably wouldn't like to have friends because it would interfere with my wanting to ctb as well as put extra burden and guilt on me should I ctb (which is inevitable in my life).
 
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Eren

Eren

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I too only had a childhood friend and he only stayed with me partly due to pity. When I entered college, that relationship waned and faded away. Ever since the last decade of my life, I've been lonely and friendless, with some acquaintances here and there. Given my situation now, I probably wouldn't like to have friends because it would interfere with my wanting to ctb as well as put extra burden and guilt on me should I ctb (which is inevitable in my life).

I understand, in my case the only thing that torments me is my mother, is the only thing that prevents me from CTB yet
 
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JustAboutDone

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I don't know anyone I knew from when I was a child. I was bullied badly at school and that hurt so much. In my first few jobs I had problems with work bullies too - I think sometimes people just sense someone's more vulnerable and pick on them to make themselves look better. It took me a long time to learn I can be strong but not have to compromise being kind and caring. I wasn't going to let how other people treated me make me a bitter and angry person or they would end up winning. Nowadays I'm lucky to have real friends though when you suffer from depression you start slipping away from them and avoiding them.
 
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JustAboutDone

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I feel quite alone and I only have a friend IRL (in real life) that I met during childhood, we both have a hard time socializing but we were always together, for quite some time it passes completely from me, it is sad to know that it only remained with me because I had no one more, when he met a few more friends we do not see each other in months.

In addition, the few times that we have stayed makes a mockery of my situation (no social contact) it is almost like bullying and it is annoying, it is sad.

You are worth more than someone who treats you like this. I know it hurts and it's hard to deal with. A real friend would treat you with kindness so it might be time to ditch this person. Sending you a hug xx
 
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Eren

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You are worth more than someone who treats you like this. I know it hurts and it's hard to deal with. A real friend would treat you with kindness so it might be time to ditch this person. Sending you a hug xx

Thanks a lot hugs.
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

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I had awful friends back in school too. They were almost all rich and I wasn't, and they never let me forget it. There was a lot of snobbery, backstabbing, and general nastiness. My "bestie" also hooked up with a girl he knew I was crazy about, which killed me. Those were the only kind of friends I knew, growing up. Once I got to college, I was done with having friends and I haven't had any since.

Anyway Eren, sorry to read about your experience. Given the above I am probably the last person able to offer support or comfort, but I do know you're better off flying solo than hanging around people who make you feel bad, even if you are supposedly friends.
 
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Eren

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Anyway Eren, sorry to read about your experience. Given the above I am probably the last person able to offer support or comfort, but I do know you're better off flying solo than hanging around people who make you feel bad, even if you are supposedly friends.

You are absolutely right, thank you.
 
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