Last night, I was feeling unwell so I took some extra pills (it wasn't an attempt obviously) - I just wanted to feel some pain. My friend got to know about this and she called 911. Then, the police showed at my door (I had no clue she called) and I was taken to the hospital. I was so sure I would be inpatient but luckily, I told them that I had attack anxiety and took some extra pills to calm myself down. I never thought they would buy this but the doctor bought it and I was send home. This was all so traumatic - my roommate and boyfriend came with me to the hospital and stayed there (I was in the hospital for 3 hours) but they both were so mad at me. It's like I am ruining my relationships too. I told them to say I had no plan or intent and I am not suicidal to the doctor (even though I am). They both lied for me but were mad and now I don't know how to improve this situation.
Personally, I feel contempt for anyone who attempts to save me. They can go straight to hell.
You should be able to study a 4 year bachelors degree on suicide. After that,who can say you have not got a complete understanding of the subject.
I have studied suicide for longer than my doctor,so what right does he have to tell me I am even "ill"?
Who decided it is wrong to end your life as you choose?
It used to be seriously illegal to be gay. Now it is acceptable and even marriage is permitted.
Will this change in time? It's just a throw back from the Christian conditioning that attests only God can give or take life.
I have studied suicide for longer than my doctor,so what right does he have to tell me I am even "ill"?
Who decided it is wrong to end your life as you choose?
It used to be seriously illegal to be gay. Now it is acceptable and even marriage is permitted.
Will this change in time? It's just a throw back from the Christian conditioning that attests only God can give or take life.
purplemoon
I Have the Light Inside, Surrounded by Darkness
- Sep 22, 2019
- 394
First off, I would politely remind them that you're not the one who called 911.
Thank them for covering for you and reiterate that you appreciate their friendship. Do something as a gesture like inviting them (together or separately) to a dinner you're cooking for them, treat them to coffee, etc. and most importantly create even a brief experience during which they start rebuilding their 'positive' feelings of association with you, even if it's just an hour or a small thank you card/e-card.
This usually makes a difference within a couple of days after they have processed their emotions. I know it's unfair to you, but it's a way of repairing, even if you feel they are over-reacting. (most people do react selfishly and/or incapable of looking at it from your perspective)
That's what I would do. Even an e-card would help, imo. You didn't do anything wrong. But humans are a bit wacky to deal with as everyone has ten zillion different ideas/perspectives and get discombobulated easily. *sigh*
I recently had a clinic appt for more sleeping pills, and of course they asked me their 'required' screening questions... "Have you had any thoughts in the last 2 weeks that you would be better off dead/suicide" etc.
I responded "No, never" and in my mind just rolling my eyes in irritation at the invasiveness of it all. One day society will look back at the absolute barbarity of it all.... holding people hostage who want to end their own life as if others would be 'saving' them...
It is our life, our decision, our body, our right. Nobody knows better than themselves how much more they can survive, cope, function etc.
Many People are brainwashed and they don't know it.
Only a small percentage of the human population seems to actually think independently or even begin to question some of the knee-jerk reactions we are socialized into...
I'm a bit on the fence as far as if they have good intentions, and I understand their reaction to a point... especially if they know you personally, however..........
but ultimately you are the one who has to continue suffering, you are the one that has to live with whatever trauma and damage has occurred, Not them.
That's where I break off the fence and become completely pro-choice.
Nobody has the right to interfere with my liberty / your liberty when it comes to such a precious decision.
I challenge and dare any person who would tell me 'please don't kill yourself' or 'there's help out there' (*laughable*).... Oh really?
Here is what I would like to really say to the people who might want to "Save" me, or you, etc...
So then you must be offering to be one of those who WILL help me? Are you going to be my friend in my life then? Oh...no? Then Mind your own business and move on. Oh, I see... so I have to PAY someone to "care" and help me? You don't want to help me out of the goodness of your heart? Oh, would it be too draining for you? Then you DON'T really care do you? If these types of people "cared" soooo much... then WHY don't they actually make a personalized effort to be in our life to make that difference??? Liars, hypocrites, fair weather friends all.... not acceptable.
Unless someone is going to actually be in my life making an effort on some level to care, to help, etc then they're just spewing a bunch of bs. Also, I've tried for years on various 'meds' and 'shrinks' and support groups, etc. Nothing ever works EXCEPT when I'm in a serious relationship with someone who at least initially surrounds me with love, and of course that never lasts these days as people generally become selfish users, or reveal themselves as narcissists that just take, take, take or even abusers that I dump flat on their backside like they deserve.
I've helped so many people in life, and when I actually needed even just a little support, 99% abandoned me, oh, unless there was some immediate benefit they would lose. Hmmm..... so much for really "caring". Most humans don't care about doing what's decent, they only do things If and only if it directly benefits themselves. Sorry i'm bitter about it, but it's my life experience. It seems many suicidal people on here feel pretty similar feelings with few exceptions.
Until all of these people who claim to "care" actually SHOW it via doing things to help directly that You say will help you feel less sad, less overwhelmed, less stressed....
unless and until an individual actually listens to and puts into action what you ask that will help you feel less inclined to free yourself from this physical realm of suffering... I say do whatever you think is best for you.
That is your absolute right.
They don't know That they don't know...
If you or I want to free our soul from this mortal coil, then that is our right, it is our life.
Nobody but us has to live it. Ergo, it is our choice.
Thank them for covering for you and reiterate that you appreciate their friendship. Do something as a gesture like inviting them (together or separately) to a dinner you're cooking for them, treat them to coffee, etc. and most importantly create even a brief experience during which they start rebuilding their 'positive' feelings of association with you, even if it's just an hour or a small thank you card/e-card.
This usually makes a difference within a couple of days after they have processed their emotions. I know it's unfair to you, but it's a way of repairing, even if you feel they are over-reacting. (most people do react selfishly and/or incapable of looking at it from your perspective)
That's what I would do. Even an e-card would help, imo. You didn't do anything wrong. But humans are a bit wacky to deal with as everyone has ten zillion different ideas/perspectives and get discombobulated easily. *sigh*
I recently had a clinic appt for more sleeping pills, and of course they asked me their 'required' screening questions... "Have you had any thoughts in the last 2 weeks that you would be better off dead/suicide" etc.
I responded "No, never" and in my mind just rolling my eyes in irritation at the invasiveness of it all. One day society will look back at the absolute barbarity of it all.... holding people hostage who want to end their own life as if others would be 'saving' them...
It is our life, our decision, our body, our right. Nobody knows better than themselves how much more they can survive, cope, function etc.
Many People are brainwashed and they don't know it.
Only a small percentage of the human population seems to actually think independently or even begin to question some of the knee-jerk reactions we are socialized into...
I'm a bit on the fence as far as if they have good intentions, and I understand their reaction to a point... especially if they know you personally, however..........
but ultimately you are the one who has to continue suffering, you are the one that has to live with whatever trauma and damage has occurred, Not them.
That's where I break off the fence and become completely pro-choice.
Nobody has the right to interfere with my liberty / your liberty when it comes to such a precious decision.
I challenge and dare any person who would tell me 'please don't kill yourself' or 'there's help out there' (*laughable*).... Oh really?
Here is what I would like to really say to the people who might want to "Save" me, or you, etc...
So then you must be offering to be one of those who WILL help me? Are you going to be my friend in my life then? Oh...no? Then Mind your own business and move on. Oh, I see... so I have to PAY someone to "care" and help me? You don't want to help me out of the goodness of your heart? Oh, would it be too draining for you? Then you DON'T really care do you? If these types of people "cared" soooo much... then WHY don't they actually make a personalized effort to be in our life to make that difference??? Liars, hypocrites, fair weather friends all.... not acceptable.
Unless someone is going to actually be in my life making an effort on some level to care, to help, etc then they're just spewing a bunch of bs. Also, I've tried for years on various 'meds' and 'shrinks' and support groups, etc. Nothing ever works EXCEPT when I'm in a serious relationship with someone who at least initially surrounds me with love, and of course that never lasts these days as people generally become selfish users, or reveal themselves as narcissists that just take, take, take or even abusers that I dump flat on their backside like they deserve.
I've helped so many people in life, and when I actually needed even just a little support, 99% abandoned me, oh, unless there was some immediate benefit they would lose. Hmmm..... so much for really "caring". Most humans don't care about doing what's decent, they only do things If and only if it directly benefits themselves. Sorry i'm bitter about it, but it's my life experience. It seems many suicidal people on here feel pretty similar feelings with few exceptions.
Until all of these people who claim to "care" actually SHOW it via doing things to help directly that You say will help you feel less sad, less overwhelmed, less stressed....
unless and until an individual actually listens to and puts into action what you ask that will help you feel less inclined to free yourself from this physical realm of suffering... I say do whatever you think is best for you.
That is your absolute right.
They don't know That they don't know...
If you or I want to free our soul from this mortal coil, then that is our right, it is our life.
Nobody but us has to live it. Ergo, it is our choice.
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I would do the opposite. Such people who direct anger at others for our own handling of our own bodies are not capable of friendship and are demonstrating an enormous unwillingness to own their shit and take responsibility for their own needs instead of treating others as extensions of themselves.
purplemoon
I Have the Light Inside, Surrounded by Darkness
- Sep 22, 2019
- 394
Exactly! Eloquently and beautifully written....
It's like keeping someone prisoner because they want to Escape to a better world, better existence.... but the hostage taker demands you stay because your absence (death) would 'upset' them, Their needs.... Not yours. Selfish, selfish, selfish....
I'm really impressed with how many people on this site have Advanced perception and higher thinking... who's really 'crazy'?!?
Not us darling...
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