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TrynaChingMyself
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- Aug 29, 2021
- 76
I was planning to ctb very soon. I had everything sorted. My method is SN and I have gastro intestinal issues so I made sure I was in peak condition. I was perfect.
My phone broke in the early morning today. I need my phone for the day I ctb so I can't really do it without. I was pissed. Then the Internet stopped working at the exact same time and I couldn't change my plans around to deal with this last minute hurdle. I couldn't even find out how to fix my phone.
This day has been stressful but managed to push the date back a bit. But I'm not happy about it. What do I even do with myself for a week when I was ready for it to end? Now i have to start preparing my body for SN again. And I have to live when I don't want to. Not to mention the extra cost of changing things and fixing a phone. I can't even CTB correctly.
I hate life. I hate the universe. These coincidences will not stop me. I need the sweet release.
My phone broke in the early morning today. I need my phone for the day I ctb so I can't really do it without. I was pissed. Then the Internet stopped working at the exact same time and I couldn't change my plans around to deal with this last minute hurdle. I couldn't even find out how to fix my phone.
This day has been stressful but managed to push the date back a bit. But I'm not happy about it. What do I even do with myself for a week when I was ready for it to end? Now i have to start preparing my body for SN again. And I have to live when I don't want to. Not to mention the extra cost of changing things and fixing a phone. I can't even CTB correctly.
I hate life. I hate the universe. These coincidences will not stop me. I need the sweet release.