Discussion Forced to CTB

[Sisyphus]

I feel like I am forced to CTB because it's not possible for me to work due to my physical and mental problems that I have been suffering with for 20 years. All this time I was going to doctors and trying to recover, but the truth is that I was never successful enough to live by myself.

Now my way of living is coming to an end and I face being homeless and alone, and I know I cannot take that. Even being in a relatively comfortable position like I am right now I was not doing well.

If only I could work and keep a job I know I could live and even be successful because everybody tells me that I am capable and intelligent and I graduated with honors from college and seemingly did everything right. Still, I have this monkey on my back. No matter what I do, it seems I can make no changes in my situation, so I am left hopeless and considering CTB.

Everybody tells me I should not CTB, but then again they offer no solutions. It feels like every day I get further from the solution and closer to death, and it scares me. I scare myself with the way I speak and think, but I see no other option.

 

[IWantToSleep]

I hope things go in your favour.

 

[Jumping_realms]

I'm sorry... could you apply for any sort of disability benefits per month?

 

[FuneralCry]

This life really can be cruel, I'm sorry you are suffering, it really is hard to be trapped in a hopeless situation, I understand. I wish you well.

 

[Sisyphus]

I'm sorry... could you apply for any sort of disability benefits per month?

That is my only hope, but probably not since I have applied before a few times and been denied. I am left believing that I cannot live and apparently the world wants me dead.

 

[meetapple]

Could you get a pro Bono attorney to advise you?

 

[Sisyphus]

Could you get a pro Bono attorney to advise you?

Yes I have before, but they dropped me when I got denied a few times. That was years ago though, and since then I have been trying, and failing, to keep a job. I am going to be applying again when I am eligible, but it will probably be too late by then.

By all means there should be a way for me to live, but I am not going to count on the benevolence of the universe to pull me through. I need insurance against a fate worse than death, so I turn to CTB.

I need a miracle, but I do not beleive in miracles. Still, I have prayed to God, although I have been an athiest for decades. If I pull through this it really is going to be a miracle and also a fundamental change in how I view the world. My recovery at this point would need an act of God. That is my last hope now, but it is not very much.

 

[Auto Immunity After]

Yes I have before, but they dropped me when I got denied a few times. That was years ago though, and since then I have been trying, and failing, to keep a job. I am going to be applying again when I am eligible, but it will probably be too late by then.

By all means there should be a way for me to live, but I am not going to count on the benevolence of the universe to pull me through. I need insurance against a fate worse than death, so I turn to CTB.

I need a miracle, but I do not beleive in miracles. Still, I have prayed to God, although I have been an athiest for decades. If I pull through this it really is going to be a miracle and also a fundamental change in how I view the world. My recovery at this point would need an act of God. That is my last hope now, but it is not very much.

I am literally going through the same as you. I have an auto imune disorder but dont qualify for disability and i cant work due to nerve pain in my back. My thoughts are exactly like yours........its like life is saying my time is up, sorry.......i cant live if i dont work and i cant work.......same as you. I thought I was the only one in this situation.......I am so sorry you are having the same troubles. I am puchasing N tomorrow. I have 3 months worth of money left to live.......I keep thinking something good will happen in my life but i lay in bed every day in pain and its been the same for a year. I never thought at 53 I would be in this situation as you are also. I hope something good happens to you soon!

 

[Sisyphus]

I am literally going through the same as you. I have an auto imune disorder but dont qualify for disability and i cant work due to nerve pain in my back. My thoughts are exactly like yours........its like life is saying my time is up, sorry.......i cant live if i dont work and i cant work.......same as you. I thought I was the only one in this situation.......I am so sorry you are having the same troubles. I am puchasing N tomorrow. I have 3 months worth of money left to live.......I keep thinking something good will happen in my life but i lay in bed every day in pain and its been the same for a year. I never thought at 53 I would be in this situation as you are also. I hope something good happens to you soon!

Sorry you are going through this, and I think many people have unfortunately gone through this. I will not stop trying and I suggest you do the same.

You definitely need lawyers to help you with this, the government makes it so difficult to get the help you need. You need to build a case.

Call everybody, tell everybody you know. I know I have, but for you it may help.

 

[Auto Immunity After]

Sorry you are going through this, and I think many people have unfortunately gone through this. I will not stop trying and I suggest you do the same.

You definitely need lawyers to help you with this, the government makes it so difficult to get the help you need. You need to build a case.

Call everybody, tell everybody you know. I know I have, but for you it may help.

Thank you for your thoughts