For all the nostalgic ones here

[Downbylife]

It's the middle of the night, I'm scrolling throught my old messages and photos with the once lost friends and my ex-girlfriends. Everyone of them moved on, they are probably happy having simple yet peaceful life with significant others by their side or even kids.

And I'm lying down on my bed with my chronic illness, trapped inside my room with no hope left listening to sad songs and regreting the past staring at that damn phone screen.

I truly wish I could turn back time, I really do. This feeling is killing me slowly

 

[Octavia]

I think about my childhood friends a lot at night, I hope that they are doing okay. The worst thing is that I have forgotten a few of their names. Some friend I was.

 

[Downbylife]

I think about my childhood friends a lot at night, I hope that they are doing okay. The worst thing is that I have forgotten a few of their names. Some friend I was.

I literally tried to recall some names tonight but I couldn't. Even my brain is playing tricks on me

 

[IWasColdBesideYou]

even though i know im going to dread the feeling it brings me, i reminisce on my childhood and my past relationships all the time. I think its knowing that it's all lost forever that really gets to me, the only good times in my life are completely gone and never to retun lol. But, I guess nostalgia (its original meaning atleast) does imply that theres a degree of pain or longing (or both) attached to the memory.

 

[SilentSadness]

That sounds so painful for you, we only ever seem to remember positive experiences rather than experience them. There really is not much good in this terrible landscape of misery, I really wish I wasn't here. I hope you find peace.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Nostalgia is definitely painful. All the while you are pining for the past time continues its inexorable match on and on...

 

[System28]

i know the feeling, i remember when i was a child everthing was simple an world full of possibilities, now things dont make sence anymore wish i can have that feeling again

 

[randy]

no chance in reaching out to old friends just to say hi?

 

[Downbylife]

no chance in reaching out to old friends just to say hi?

To be honest with my current illness it would be hard for me

 

[HopelessSoul]

Sometimes I doubt even my own memories, I know there was a time when I had friends and even some possibility of a relationship, but it was so long ago its difficult for me to believe it actually happened, it feels like that was another life, now they come back in my dreams in the form of social humiliation, Im so fucked up

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that it's just the reality of this existence, how if there is something that is seen as being positive it exists only to be taken away and lead to more suffering. Nothing ever lasts in this life and eventually we have to die and lose everything. But it's just so true that existing here certainly can be so painful, at least to me the only thing that could ever be close to being a relief is the fact that whatever we go through in life will someday be long forgotten about.