Method For a hot minute I forgot I was suicidal

[TacoBell]

I don't understand time anymore, so I don't know when it happened but, I wasn't suicidal, for just a second, I forgot about all the horrible things that I couldn't control, I slept and laid and did mindless things.
I figured I would even delete my account but I was too depressed to get off my *ss and do something, so I just continued laying and sleeping...
Then today happened, a harsh reminder of all the reasons why I hate this world...
All the reasons why I NEED to get away.
I'm so tired.
I keep thinking "I just want to go home," but I've been "home" all day..
I'm so tired...
Anyways, I decided to go with carbon monoxide poisoning. I'm hoping I can do it tonight. Just get it over with before someone stops me, y'know ?
Wish me luck, I guess. :)
And good luck to the rest of you as well, with whatever answer you choose.

 

[GirlInBlue]

I keep thinking "I just want to go home," but I've been "home" all day..

I relate to this statement too much... I hope everything goes smoothly for you TacoBell, best of luck.

 

[Meowkin]

While I'm glad you had a moment of respite from your pain, I'm sorry that your experience of life as a whole has brought you to this point. Good luck. I hope you find peace.

 

[SunInTheShade9]

I don't understand time anymore, so I don't know when it happened but, I wasn't suicidal, for just a second, I forgot about all the horrible things that I couldn't control, I slept and laid and did mindless things.
I figured I would even delete my account but I was too depressed to get off my *ss and do something, so I just continued laying and sleeping...
Then today happened, a harsh reminder of all the reasons why I hate this world...
All the reasons why I NEED to get away.
I'm so tired.
I keep thinking "I just want to go home," but I've been "home" all day..
I'm so tired...
Anyways, I decided to go with carbon monoxide poisoning. I'm hoping I can do it tonight. Just get it over with before someone stops me, y'know ?
Wish me luck, I guess. :)
And good luck to the rest of you as well, with whatever answer you choose.

The need to go home is so strong. It almost feels like a re-set button.
I did absolutely nothing today but drink, smoke and sleep.
Sending you lots of love. Xx

 

[Good4Nothing]

I'm on an emotional rollercoaster here lately.
One minute I want to CTB, the next I don't.
Then I do again, then I don't again.
It's too stressful. I wish I could just go camping with some friends and get good and drunk.