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Just want it all to be over
- Oct 25, 2021
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My first thought of the morning is I want to die. I have to do this soon. I can't take this much longer
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Im lucky at least I work from home for now. My sn better work because every day gets more and more unbearable with suicidal thoughts and more of me hating myself. Right now I just want to swallow a huge spoonful of it and be done. Sorry for venting.Can relate to this. Just got up about 45 minutes ago and that was my very first thought like it is every morning. Unfortunately it's not the weekend, so, cannot go back to sleep. Have to go to work and be "human" even though I feel like a very poor imitation of one. Oh well. Hopefully on New Years Eve at midnight I will be drinking my SN.
I tried to get help last month but the week I spent in a mental facility didn't help at all. This is my first only option nowSame for me as well. The first thought in the morning and the last one before I sleep.
I have my SN ready in the shelf but can't decide on a date. Some inner voice keeps telling me that "things will get better". Wish I could trust it.
It's of force of habit I always apologize. I always feel like I'm in the way because I'll always depressed so I always apologize. Hopefully the sn I have is legit and I won't be in the way for long. I hate to die alone but it's going to end up that way probably anyway. I just want to eat a spoonful of sn right now.. lolNo need to apologize. Pretty sure everyone discussing in this thread currently is pretty tired of their lives so we can relate to how you feel. It's tiring trying to make the effort to "be better" and you just can't. All you want is rest.
I get that. Used to do it all the time myself. I just have reached a point where I am mostly indifferent so I don't apologize much anymore.It's of force of habit I always apologize. I always feel like I'm in the way because I'll always depressed so I always apologize. Hopefully the sn I have is legit and I won't be in the way for long. I hate to die alone but it's going to end up that way probably anyway. I just want to eat a spoonful of sn right now.. lol
Yeah, I'm making my plan. My big concern is that I don't have anything for anti-nausea so hopefully it I fast long enough then I'll absorb enough to kill ne before I vomit. I'll be in a hotel (leaving money for cleanup) that I'm booking for a couple of days so no one will find me until I've passed. If I don't succeed I'll be locked up in a psych ward and my husband I'm sure will be pissed off so there is no choice but to succeed. My anxiety is going crazy thinking about what could go wrong.I get that. Used to do it all the time myself. I just have reached a point where I am mostly indifferent so I don't apologize much anymore.
All that said, don't do the SN impulsively. Have a higher chance of failure if you do. Stick with a strict regiment and plan and your success rates hold dramatically increase.
I'm getting more and more tempted to do it soon.Same for me as well. The first thought in the morning and the last one before I sleep.
I have my SN ready in the shelf but can't decide on a date. Some inner voice keeps telling me that "things will get better". Wish I could trust it.
i know what you mean - i wake up and think about jumping in front of a train.My first thought of the morning is I want to die. I have to do this soon. I can't take this much longer
yes - and the most frustrating thing is that you will never get what would help you out of the misery. so its killed by society i would say.It's the same for me, especially since I have no job to go to….no friends….don't talk to my family and I don't leave my house…..I pretty much live inside my head and it's just a constant feeling of anxiety….I either take my painkiller to put me to sleep or just binge-watch tv until it's nighttime.