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iwanttodie000
Student
- Feb 15, 2021
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Hey everyone, brand new here, super excited to be a part of this forum. As for me, I have suffered with severe depression/anxiety my whole life. I used to hide it behind a smile and keep it to myself. But over the past year, I have been a little more open on social media, sharing suicide/depression stuff and I think most people know I am suicidal on some level. BUT, they have zero idea how suicidal I actually am. How I think about it 24/7. How I crave it and want it more than anything. I know a handful of people will really struggle when I do it and I've stayed alive for that handful of people for years .. and I just can't do it anymore. I wish they didn't care, I wish they would understand and just let me go. But I cannot stay in this hell much longer. I have a lot of work to do in regards to selecting a fool proof method that will be both quick and effective. I told myself I wouldn't see 2021, yet here I am. This is the final year. It has to be. I am making this promise to myself. This is the year my pain and my story ends. And I can't wait.