Venting First post and maybe last

[Ashley]

Ive been reading on here alot lately and while I'm still here i might as well post too. I'm 21F and recently moved across the country. Ive never held a job despite trying so much. I did well in college to the topics that actually interested me but i had to leave to move. I cant get a job here either and my BF pays for me on everything. I feel like such a huge burden on him. He says he rather be broke and have me then to have his money back and send me back home. But when the topic of money comes up daily and i cant fucking help at all i just wanna end it. Other than him i constantly feel like everyone hates me and even though im sure im wrong all i can hear is in my head them talking bad about me. Saying im useless or that i would be better dead. Maybe they do really think that.

I just wanna make him happy..