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Creamyasf
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- Jul 5, 2024
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Hello! this will be my first and last post here. my method is most likely going to be from a 700FT drop, hopefully it's lethal, i'm 5'11 160. However for a drop like that it's about an hour drive which isn't too bad. the trains that pass in my home time go by frequently so i've been considering that.
now my biggest dilemma here is what day to choose probably within the next week or so, so could someone help me pick a day?
i'm not sad, scared, or angry. im actually quite blissful my life has come to an end. ultimately im a nihilist at heart. i tried killing myself and failed when i was younger. i'm now 19, 3 cars, a 3 bedroom house, government job, and in college, and also a barista haha. [no i'm not exhausted i have tons of energy]
so why am i doing this? i initially fell in love with a girl when i was 13 and it caused so many years of emotional turmoil and suffering. sounds funny, but i really love deeply. i started dating someone else after years and unfortunately my now ex girlfriend was unfaithful to me. i feel like life is beautiful but im not ready for the breakup to process and i feel 100% content in my life, i don't want to suffer this time.
i have everything i could want, and i feel empty, i feel like i've completed life.
i have affected many lives and i believe i have always been kind to others and left a good impression, because i know i genuinely care for others, but it was never reciprocated. i have no real close friends.
i want anyone who did me wrong to feel the pain i do, because i love and feel so deeply, and i want everyone to regret being rude to me, the humans i know are monsters.
TLDR: ex girlfriend was unfaithful and i don't feel like suffering, i'm 100% content with my life, and i want all eyes on everyone who's done me wrong.
now my biggest dilemma here is what day to choose probably within the next week or so, so could someone help me pick a day?
i'm not sad, scared, or angry. im actually quite blissful my life has come to an end. ultimately im a nihilist at heart. i tried killing myself and failed when i was younger. i'm now 19, 3 cars, a 3 bedroom house, government job, and in college, and also a barista haha. [no i'm not exhausted i have tons of energy]
so why am i doing this? i initially fell in love with a girl when i was 13 and it caused so many years of emotional turmoil and suffering. sounds funny, but i really love deeply. i started dating someone else after years and unfortunately my now ex girlfriend was unfaithful to me. i feel like life is beautiful but im not ready for the breakup to process and i feel 100% content in my life, i don't want to suffer this time.
i have everything i could want, and i feel empty, i feel like i've completed life.
i have affected many lives and i believe i have always been kind to others and left a good impression, because i know i genuinely care for others, but it was never reciprocated. i have no real close friends.
i want anyone who did me wrong to feel the pain i do, because i love and feel so deeply, and i want everyone to regret being rude to me, the humans i know are monsters.
TLDR: ex girlfriend was unfaithful and i don't feel like suffering, i'm 100% content with my life, and i want all eyes on everyone who's done me wrong.