Jon Arbuckle
Aspiring Corpse
- Jul 23, 2024
- 87
is there anyone here that has attempted to CTB with a firearm but ultimately failed due to SI? if I'm going to buy a gun I can NOT back out of it, I need to know if this is a risk or not.
this is a possibility with any method. usually it's not experienced until the moment.I need to know if this is a risk or not.
Do you know if your friend's mom survived due to improper technique or a weak gun? Did somebody immediately call 911 after it happened or something? I mean I hope it was something like that. Because the thought of surviving despite taking the necessary contingencies is terrifying.If you're still around this is how I attempted to ctb a decade ago. picked out a nice spot at the lake, bought a hand gun from the flea market, sat there for a couple of hours and just could not do it. I don't know what went through my mind exactly. it was like others said, got the gun up to my head, had the trigger pulled almost far enough but I just couldn't do it. and yeah part of it was the "what if" it didn't work. I also remember how stupid my problems looked and how I wanted to give meds a shot, go to school, etc. a decade later and I'm still fucking crazy, even worse off financially, and still wanting to ctb so...
crazy thing was a few months after I got back from my grippy sock vacation my friend's mom actually pulled the trigger and it didn't work. she has to wear diapers, her ex-husband had to come back and take care of her like she's one of her kids. her grown kids had to watch her like she was a toddler for years. for a couple of months they thought she was going to be a vegetable. she's capable of doing basic tasks now but goddamn my next attempt is not gonna be with a gun.
By chance, do you know the type of gun she used and where she aimed? (Under chin, temple, in mouth, behind ear)?If you're still around this is how I attempted to ctb a decade ago. picked out a nice spot at the lake, bought a hand gun from the flea market, sat there for a couple of hours and just could not do it. I don't know what went through my mind exactly. it was like others said, got the gun up to my head, had the trigger pulled almost far enough but I just couldn't do it. and yeah part of it was the "what if" it didn't work. I also remember how stupid my problems looked and how I wanted to give meds a shot, go to school, etc. a decade later and I'm still fucking crazy, even worse off financially, and still wanting to ctb so...
crazy thing was a few months after I got back from my grippy sock vacation my friend's mom actually pulled the trigger and it didn't work. she has to wear diapers, her ex-husband had to come back and take care of her like she's one of her kids. her grown kids had to watch her like she was a toddler for years. for a couple of months they thought she was going to be a vegetable. she's capable of doing basic tasks now but goddamn my next attempt is not gonna be with a gun.