Fingers crossed Helene takes me out

[justpathetic]

I am aware that I'm giving away my location to an extent. I'm ok with that. Evertime we get a hurricane/tornadoes etc... I wish i could be killed by it. I know it's horribly cowardly but I can't help but think how it would be a win win for everyone. I'd be at peace, family wouldn't have to deal with guilt/anger etc...from me ctb. It would just be seen as a horrible (but not uncommon) tragedy.

 

[TennTrixie]

I know what you mean. I've thought the same about a tornado.

 

[justpathetic]

I know what you mean. I've thought the same about a tornado.

I've actually went outside looking for funnels that were supposed to be near me. I never saw any. I wander around out side during thunderstorms sometimes hoping to get hit by lightning or have a tree fall on me. My SI is so hard for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just wanting to be gone, I hope that you find peace from the suffering.