letmeseethedeath
catching the bus
- Aug 4, 2018
- 465
i'm back on my true and only real family i have : you guys on SS
in these days of quarantine i'm having so many problems with myself and my shitty family.
my dad is in hospital 3 hours away from me because he has cancer. i'm so desperate i want him to be ok and god can take my life instead of him or others. but my mother and others of the family are blaming me for everything. they said : "he is sick because of you. because you have gender dysphoria. because you like girls. because you have thricotillomania. because you're the worst daughter. because you wanted to study chemistry instead of medicine and now you could have helped him. because you can't find a job. because you're shit. because you're a loser. because we regret the time we had you".
ok guys so i can't deal with all this. i'm so broken. in this quarantine (i'm in italy) i want to make some money online because after this quarantine my plan is find a job live alone traveling around the world and when i can't deal anymore ctb is the answer, but the most important thing is going away from them. they hurt me so much. anybody can tell me what i can do online? and also i'm interested in knowing bitcoins and tradex but please don't cheat i need serious answers and help. thank you all guys i love you ❤
in these days of quarantine i'm having so many problems with myself and my shitty family.
my dad is in hospital 3 hours away from me because he has cancer. i'm so desperate i want him to be ok and god can take my life instead of him or others. but my mother and others of the family are blaming me for everything. they said : "he is sick because of you. because you have gender dysphoria. because you like girls. because you have thricotillomania. because you're the worst daughter. because you wanted to study chemistry instead of medicine and now you could have helped him. because you can't find a job. because you're shit. because you're a loser. because we regret the time we had you".
ok guys so i can't deal with all this. i'm so broken. in this quarantine (i'm in italy) i want to make some money online because after this quarantine my plan is find a job live alone traveling around the world and when i can't deal anymore ctb is the answer, but the most important thing is going away from them. they hurt me so much. anybody can tell me what i can do online? and also i'm interested in knowing bitcoins and tradex but please don't cheat i need serious answers and help. thank you all guys i love you ❤