finally had the courage to tell my abusive mother to mark her words

[teddybear1403]

My life's been pretty shit from the start and my family is one of the factors of that crap life. Today while my mother was going through her everyday routine of degrading me to make herself feel better. I had enough of it, I thought "What harm would be done? I'll ctb myself soon." She was stunned for a second but she resumed her bullshit words and also said that she would mark her words. I CAN'T wait when she connects this shit at my funeral.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

My life's been pretty shit from the start and my family is one of the factors of that crap life. Today while my mother was going through her everyday routine of degrading me to make herself feel better. I had enough of it, I thought "What harm would be done? I'll ctb myself soon." She was stunned for a second but she resumed her bullshit words and also said that she would mark her words. I CAN'T wait when she connects this shit at my funeral.

Good for you. I hate to see anyone CTB if their circumstances could get better like getting away from your toxic family.
If that isn't possible … I hope you find peace.

 

[Jumper Geo]

My life's been pretty shit from the start and my family is one of the factors of that crap life. Today while my mother was going through her everyday routine of degrading me to make herself feel better. I had enough of it, I thought "What harm would be done? I'll ctb myself soon." She was stunned for a second but she resumed her bullshit words and also said that she would mark her words. I CAN'T wait when she connects this shit at my funeral.

Hiya,

Teddybear1403, well you made a significant step in the right direction, why not tell your mother and family how their behaviour is making you feel, like you said you can ctb and it's better out than in, lol

Best wishes

Geo

 

[randomz]

That's great for you @teddybear1403 but I think it will be even better if she realises her mistakes with you when you leave her because you are just starting your own life. Maybe CTB is not the perfect answer in your situation.

 

[Lorntroubles]

To have a mother degrade you is saddening. There's days I debate whether to say something or not waste energy and emotions on people. They don't deserve not one moment voiced from my mouth.

 

[teddybear1403]

She realises her mistakes. It's just that they don't affect her anymore and as I said, family is only one of the many reasons why I'm so done with this life. Worst part is I. can't even get away from any of my problems or fix any of them. Thank you all for the support though, It's really appreciated.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

She realises her mistakes. It's just that they don't affect her anymore and as I said, family is only one of the many reasons why I'm so done with this life. Worst part is I. can't even get away from any of my problems or fix any of them. Thank you all for the support though, It's really appreciated.

So sorry I can't fix my problems either. I hope you are able to find peace.

 

[Death.]

I looked my mother straight in her eye as she laid on her death bed riddled with illness and told her "this is the life you have brought me into" and it's the best thing I've done to date. No regrets whatsoever. I hope she realised her gross mistake in subjecting me unnecessarily to this cruel, wicked and horrible existence.

It is exactly for this reason I have vowed to never subject my unborn children to unnecessary and futile suffering in this world.

 

[Lostandfound7]

I really hate that u r mom has "pushed" u to this..I'm sorry..

 

[Ghost2211]

My mom was like that too. I know how awful it feels to listen to that every day. I'm proud of you for having the courage and strength to finally tell her that she gets to eat her words down the road. Is it at all possible to not live with her?

 

[Blue Starz]

Too many people just want to "have a baby", and then reasoning "it's natural", when truly it's just selfish.
It's to have offspring to carry on their DNA. Most don't think about the suffering the innocent child will go through, or what kind of family / environment they are forced to enter.
They just want to reproduce amongst their emotional & sexual programming of pleasure, and create another human.

I personally refused to ever become pregnant, sacrificing my physical desires of the fleeting moment for their well-being many times, because I love my unborn children way too much to bring any of them into this corrupt, cruel world where reality is like an evil theater where we are forced to be a character suffering in their insane play called "Life".