Finally get it

[cazza82]

Well I've tried everything I finally get it there is no help out there for me I had appointment with my GP due to telling my counsellor about not wanting to be here anymore he fobbed it off as being my thyroid issues he actually said that it's affecting my mental health gtfoh no it isn't why doesn't anybody listen to me you reach out for what to be just abandoned in your time of need I could of been at peace why did I decide to try to fight I feel like I can't even talk about my feelings of wanting to end it now I feel like my counsellor thinks I'm just ranting to her every week not one of them is taking me seriously I wish I hadn't of handed in all those drugs I was going to use because once I did that to prove I was at least trying now I feel like I can't talk about it anymore just how hard it is daily it's the loneliness that is torture now I feel more alone in this world than I ever have after reaching out for help I guess it's back to planning no one can say I didn't try I guess I was right I just don't deserve help

 

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my experiences have been similar, GPs are notoriously negligent when it comes to mental health and always just load you with SSRIs and hope for the best

you know your country is in a sad state of affairs when its easier to blame existing issues cos of how much easier they are to treat compared to depression

 

[cazza82]

my experiences have been similar, GPs are notoriously negligent when it comes to mental health and always just load you with SSRIs and hope for the best

you know your country is in a sad state of affairs when its easier to blame existing issues cos of how much easier they are to treat compared to depression

It was hard enough to actually tell him and say those words that I'm having those thoughts about dying and I don't want to be here anymore and to blame other shit I just switched off at that point. They are totally not taking me seriously which is making me worse I did my part reaching out trying ya know like they tell you to do and they do sweet fk all to help like I wanted to die the one person that seems to want to help well I just think I'm wasting her time my counsellor I should never of handed all those drugs in for what to prove I'm trying to stay safe once I've done that go away be alone and get worse like I'm just flabbergasted I really am this could of all been dealt with all they did was give me false hope when there never really was any for me