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MariV

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Sep 13, 2020
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well for those who remember my story and my drama with my mother...ive convinced her finally to let me ctb and finish my suffering.
ill use my SN...which is 99% from spanish shop QD, in case anybody knows. im very worried about the experience though.
ill use only 20g as im very skinny, hope its enough.
i would share the experience here but i guess ill just turn the phone off. im case i dont log in anymore, big thanks to all who helped me, you know who you are!
 
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whywere

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Wishing you all the best and a safe and pleasant journey, if that is the case. All the love,caring and empathy in this world and the next to you my global family member.:heart::hug:
 
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Lady black

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Wish you a peaceful death
 
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Wishing you a safe and peaceful journey whichever way it takes you.
 
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MariV

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Sep 13, 2020
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lets see...she has already said no after agreeing before. its such a nightmare. but i rly think all the suffering ill cause on others together will be less than what i have in me
 
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MiseryLovesMyCompany

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Oct 8, 2020
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It would be much easier on you if she doesn't change her mind, let's hope that. Then you can go without worrying.
I hope everything will be alright with you and you'll find peace. Good luck!
 
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MariV

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problem is my father..im scared she told him and calls the emergency..and i end up in psych ward. ending up there is my biggest concern
 
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SunnyDaze

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Sep 8, 2020
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If your mom already agreed then why turn your phone off if you don't mind me asking?
Safe travels, friend.
 
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MariV

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If your mom already agreed then why turn your phone off if you don't mind me asking?
Safe travels, friend.
police investigation. she getting an accusation
 
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Hopefully it will be fast and painless. Good luck and safe travels :heart:
 
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The polar bears made me do it
Oct 10, 2020
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When are you planning to do it?
 
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SunnyDaze

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Sep 8, 2020
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police investigation. she getting an accusation
Ah, good thinking. Anyways, I'm sorry for all your pain. I hope you find your peace with whatever you decide. :heart:
 
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MariV

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thx all. does anybody know what happens if you survive with SN? you just wake up after some hoursblike nothings happened? guess not or?
 
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MiseryLovesMyCompany

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Oct 8, 2020
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thx all. does anybody know what happens if you survive with SN? you just wake up after some hoursblike nothings happened? guess not or?
If you are not in a state to drink another one then you'll probably need to call an ambulance. The effects are reversible.
 
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MiseryLovesMyCompany

Arcanist
Oct 8, 2020
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but that would mean psych ward...couldnt i recover at home by my own?
With IV methylene blue, sure.
In theory you could, but at a much slower rate and you wouldn't feel so good. I'm pretty sure it would be bad enough for you to want to call an ambulance.
 
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MariV

Arcanist
Sep 13, 2020
487
With IV methylene blue, sure.
In theory you could, but at a much slower rate and you wouldn't feel so good. I'm pretty sure it would be bad enough for you to want to call an ambulance.
ah damn..i have it all ready but so scared of being rescued.
also wondering if I should do 20 or 25 mg.im 50kg
 
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Viro_Major

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Jul 30, 2020
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thx all. does anybody know what happens if you survive with SN? you just wake up after some hoursblike nothings happened? guess not or?

doing it right, you don't wake up unless you call for help
 

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