Venting Fighting with parents, ctb tonight

[Theendxx]

I'm gonna ctb tonight. Or at lease attempt to.
I just can't take this anymore.
I've been fighting for so long and it just keeps getting worse and worse.
Everyone I love always hurts me and leaves me.
Im not planning this out well, but i'm going to go outside into my shed and drink a ton of SN after my boyfriend leaves and my parents go to sleep.
I ate a lot today but made myself throw up after so I should be good on that front? Maybe? I guess?
I'll keep you all updated. I'll reply with updates as soon as they happen.

 

[nightnightnitrite]

I'm sorry you got pushed to this, it isn't fair. I hope you find the peace and quiet you are looking for<3

 

[danausplexi]

i hope you find peace

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I'm sorry this happened, it's the most awful feeling.

 

[jnpx321]

I'm sorry to hear that
Do you have a job?

 

[Huntfish34]

I can relate and understand a lot of what you said... I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired,. It feels like an Absolute Fckn Nightmare. Only you Know what is best for You ,. Nobody else can carry you through this.

Thoughts and prayers to you always,. Relax a bit if at all possible.

 

[Arrow]

Everyone I love always hurts me and leaves me.

fuck all of those people. what they say or think doesn't matter.

 

[thricedead]

I'm gonna ctb tonight. Or at lease attempt to.
I just can't take this anymore.
I've been fighting for so long and it just keeps getting worse and worse.
Everyone I love always hurts me and leaves me.
Im not planning this out well, but i'm going to go outside into my shed and drink a ton of SN after my boyfriend leaves and my parents go to sleep.
I ate a lot today but made myself throw up after so I should be good on that front? Maybe? I guess?
I'll keep you all updated. I'll reply with updates as soon as they happen.

You really should not have any food in your system. SN will make you definitely throw up ev-er-y-where.

 

[peanuts]

Sorry to hear things are so rough Hoping you can relax a bit before you decide what you want to do.

 

[WanderingWater]

A rash decision coming from Anger & Frustration without preparation is more likely to be a failure. Then, the situation becomes even more complicated.

SN has a protocol for a reason.

 

[Theendxx]

A rash decision coming from Anger & Frustration without preparation is more likely to be a failure. Then, the situation becomes even more complicated.

SN has a protocol for a reason.

You're right. I'm probably going to take a test dose tonight and fast all day tomorrow.
Updates everyone, people just fell asleep so I'm going to take a test dose and decide what to do from there. Taking it in ~ 5 mins

 

[WanderingWater]

You're right. I'm probably going to take a test dose tonight and fast all day tomorrow.

Not recommended....

Sad. Reading threads will inform you not to do this.

I hope for your sake...Your cry for Help is Heard.

 

[FuneralCry]

Living really is so painful and I understand that it is hard to carry on when things just get worse. It is such a cruel and unfair life and I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you. I hope that you find relief from your suffering.

 

[meetapple]

Just give it a little thought. Make sure that this is what you want to do.

 

[picklemick]

I'm sorry. Make sure it's not things you can change or escape from pushing you.