Fiancé gone, ctb likely tomorrow

[ScaredToLive]

People prob won't interact with this post and that's cool it's a boring post about my life.

My fiancé and I split up, seemed like she instantly changed her Facebook and her Instagram so that tells me either I was being cheated on or she was waiting too.

either way it doesn't matter and I don't hate her, tbh I'm glad It means I can kill myself tomorrow. I haven't managed to achieve anything in life, I should have done music and maybe I'm not talented enough anyway but it's too late. I have SN but might just bridge it.

Though I did think a cool album name would be "well dressed for suicide". Anyways thanks for reading. Feel sick with anxiety

 

[WornOutLife]

Sorry about this.
I wish life could've been nicer for you.

Whatever happens, I wish you lots of love and peace.

Hugs,

Matt

 

[StrawberryPanic]

wish you peace

 

[littleloup]

Sorry this happened to you. Some people are the worst kind.

 

[boc]

1) this split is really fresh, give yourself a few days to make sure this is what you want
2) that is an amazing name for an album

 

[Alec]

I'm with you, I'm sorry, I wish things were different for you. Funny coincidence I guess I also wish I did stuff with music, but I don't even have any music education. I'm sending you a warm hug and I love you

 

[Pookie]

I'm sorry that you're going through such an upsetting time. I'm pro-choice, but in my opinion committing suicide is one of the most serious (and FINAL decisions) you'll ever make in your life. It's not a decision to be made in haste or when you're feeling at your most vulnerable, because you could make mistakes and end up in a worse position.

Have you asked yourself if she's worth committing suicide over (you mention that you suspect that she may have been cheating on you.) Perhaps your life is good in other aspects which means you have so many other things to live for besides your cheating ex-fiancée. You already have a cool album name so maybe you should pursue music like you mentioned. Sometimes the most creative work is borne out of suffering and hardship.

Also, you may have future opportunities to meet a new love. It may not feel like it right now, but there are people out there who'll treat you with the love and respect that you deserve.

But obviously it's not my place to tell you what you should do, the decision is ultimately yours. If possible, try sleep on it and see how you feel about it in the morning. I wish you peace and happiness whatever you decide.

 

[FuneralCry]

If this is the decision you want, I wish you peace. This life can certainly be very cruel to us.

 

[saltshaker]

Good luck OP.

 

[Shadowrider]

People prob won't interact with this post and that's cool it's a boring post about my life.

My fiancé and I split up, seemed like she instantly changed her Facebook and her Instagram so that tells me either I was being cheated on or she was waiting too.

either way it doesn't matter and I don't hate her, tbh I'm glad It means I can kill myself tomorrow. I haven't managed to achieve anything in life, I should have done music and maybe I'm not talented enough anyway but it's too late. I have SN but might just bridge it.

Though I did think a cool album name would be "well dressed for suicide". Anyways thanks for reading. Feel sick with anxiety

You mean it was only your conscience stopping you from CTB while you were together?
Yes I would assume the very same thing. Sudden changes in social media statuses can tell a lot.
Do you mean you are feeling free to do what you want?

If you really want to create music, why not give it a try? There are so many untalented people out there who don't seem to give a damn about their songs or their performance being mediocre... if they have the right to do so, then you cannot be too terrible to give it a try either. (Though you might be actually not that terrible as you think. I cannot be sure, but talented people are usually more self-critical.)
You can do the album with this impressive title - and if you still want to CTB, you might as well do it later.

I know this feeling of "having not achieved anything in this miserable life", so I can at least understand why you want to end it all.

At the moment, I am anxious as hell too (though, I have other reasons). Feeling sick and defocused - though I know this probably will not comfort you.

Anyway, I hope you find the best way for finding some ease, peace or anything.

 

[Largeletters]

I'm so sorry your fiancé left you. I hope you find peace in whatever way works for you.

 

[NoPointToContinue]

Give yourself some time if possible. Not to change your decision, but to be sure about it. (Decisions based on emotions can change, because emotions themselves can change)

 

[ScaredToLive]

Hi everyone thanks for the comments. I decided I would wait but I don't feel any better I feel worse. Unfortunately I went out drinking and greatly embarrassed myself. Which has compounded things, my ex fiancé is being absolutely horrible to me, and ice just had enough.

Gonna give away all my music for free tomorrow. Then that's me. Thanks for the support from everyone and I really appreciate it

 

[Brokenhearted84]

I'm in the same situation but worst... I have erectile dysfunction. I have been numb in the relationship because of Olanzapine, and my ex-fiancée is already in love with somebody else and telling everybody that I was cold and an asshole.

If your situation is reversible, you should wait because the pain will go away someday. My case I think is hopeless...

 

[Bergamot]

People prob won't interact with this post and that's cool it's a boring post about my life.

My fiancé and I split up, seemed like she instantly changed her Facebook and her Instagram so that tells me either I was being cheated on or she was waiting too.

either way it doesn't matter and I don't hate her, tbh I'm glad It means I can kill myself tomorrow. I haven't managed to achieve anything in life, I should have done music and maybe I'm not talented enough anyway but it's too late. I have SN but might just bridge it.

Though I did think a cool album name would be "well dressed for suicide". Anyways thanks for reading. Feel sick with anxiety

i understand you too i have been and i am experiencing the same if not worse situation, my gf treated me badly destroyed made me feel like a trash and unwanted without breaking up with me, ruined my life and increased my problems i had yeah, do you know what the worst thing is? is that I could not leave her because in spite of everything that happened I love her and I will still love her forever because she is all I have. I am only sorry that because of her I will try the ctb and many people who love me and care for me will be sad and devastated because of my final gesture of despair.