Feeling Super Alone NY 2020/21

[NeverSatisfied]

Right now I'm in an apartment in another country with a couple I don't even know for the New Year. Idk, I'm sitting in my room alone depressed and anxious as hell (I really hope fireworks aren't a thing here). I can hear people all around me cheering and celebrating the New Year together. Idk anyone else feel the same? Or with people but still feel alone. This is the first New Year/ holiday I've spent alone and idk which is better/worse.

 

[Disappointered]

I've hated nye pretty much all my life. It always seemed to hold so much promise but due to my social situations always ended up in terrible disappointment. I'm just glad I dont' have to spend it alone so I'm not especially depressed since having been able to spend it with a partner but I still don't like it as a festival. I don't have parties to go to and even if I did I'd probably not be close to the other people there. you're not alone in your loneliness...if that helps.

 

[sadlystillgoing3]

I'm sorry you're in that situation. :( I spend every NY alone and despise that it's even celebrated at all. I'm also alone in my room. Maybe putting in earphones would help. Putting on a movie or something to escape into.

 

[NeverSatisfied]

I've hated nye pretty much all my life. It always seemed to hold so much promise but due to my social situations always ended up in terrible disappointment. I'm just glad I dont' have to spend it alone so I'm not especially depressed since having been able to spend it with a partner but I still don't like it as a festival. I don't have parties to go to and even if I did I'd probably not be close to the other people there. you're not alone in your loneliness...if that helps.

Right?! The anticipation of it all leads to nothing (in the moment or the entirety of the next year). Thanks for being here with me in your response though

 

[Disappointered]

Yeah the big countdown just starts to seem like an oppressive form of collective insanity after a few nye's past your teens.

 

[NeverSatisfied]

I'm sorry you're in that situation. :( I spend every NY alone and despise that it's even celebrated at all. I'm also alone in my room. Maybe putting in earphones would help. Putting on a movie or something to escape into.

I'm sorry to hear that. Yeah, this time of year sucks :/ You're right, I have an unopened bottle of Bicardi and a new Netflix show to binge. Idk why it felt like a requirement to wait until the New Year. Also thanks for being with me in your response too :)

Yeah the big countdown just starts to seem like an oppressive form of collective insanity after a few nye's past your teens.

Right?? Like it actually makes no sense why everybody's so loud here suddenly (especially considering the year we just had and the fact this new one will really show even more of covid's consequences)

Sorry, I'm not usually so "glass-half-empty," maybe I'm just crabby/ in a bad mood

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

I'm just on my own imagining the fireworks are gunshots and one of them is bound to hit me soon.

 

[Bigpink]

In bed, ignoring the pointless fireworks. Gonna read my book about Mao

 

[yive]

I'm just on my own imagining the fireworks are gunshots and one of them is bound to hit me soon.

me too haha! that's the only thing that comforts me.
and i also feel extremely lonely, no one needs me

 

[NeverSatisfied]

I'm just on my own imagining the fireworks are gunshots and one of them is bound to hit me soon.

This is exactly why fireworks give me anxiety. I know people who have been shot and, unless on purpose, shit is no bueno.

In bed, ignoring the pointless fireworks. Gonna read my book about Mao

Yeah, so pointless! The country I'm in is built up rather than out so literally no one can even see the fireworks unless you live on the specific side of the building. So everyone can hear them and hardly anyone can see them haha

me too haha! that's the only thing that comforts me.
and i also feel extremely lonely, no one needs me

No need. Here, have a seat at the table here with all of us. We're glad you're here :)

 

[Amber1974!!]

Right now I'm in an apartment in another country with a couple I don't even know for the New Year. Idk, I'm sitting in my room alone depressed and anxious as hell (I really hope fireworks aren't a thing here). I can hear people all around me cheering and celebrating the New Year together. Idk anyone else feel the same? Or with people but still feel alone. This is the first New Year/ holiday I've spent alone and idk which is better/worse.

What country are you in?

 

[NeverSatisfied]

What country are you in?

I'm in France atm working. I'm from the US too though

 

[140 bpm]

I'm totally feeling you. Year ago I was in airbnb on my own in another city. I've took some mushrooms about 8 pm, but even that didn't help. I was experiencing bad trip on shrooms first time in my life. So I decided not eat the whole thing, just throwed the rest away and went to sleep.
This year I'm alone as well, but bunch of my coworkers around, so it fills better and I'm not even drinking.

 

[Marktheghost]

I'm all alone too.