fluffymuffin
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- Oct 11, 2020
- 48
"Things get better when you grow up!" No, they don't. I've dealt with this shit my entire life. I can't understand why people won't take children with mental health issues seriously. if I were born with a physical illness, would my parents have supported me more? I would trade my physical health for a minute of peace. The first time I opened up to my mother about it, she accused me of seeking attention. I remember doing some weird shit as a child that cannot be explained and it haunts me, I didn't choose to be born with a mind that overcomplicates everything and seeks perfectionism.
I'm supposed to be my own supporter, but how can I live with a mind that tries its best to drain my energy? Nobody knows what it's like to have OCD especially when you grow up in a place where God is supposed to the cure to every goddamn mental issue. You're depressed, paranoid or anxious? That's because you don't have enough faith in God, which contributes to why it took me so long to figure out that my problems cannot be solved by any kind of prayer.
I don't feel human anymore. Nothing feels real. my memories don't feel like they belong to me. I don't feel like I have any kind of personality.
I'm tired.
I'm supposed to be my own supporter, but how can I live with a mind that tries its best to drain my energy? Nobody knows what it's like to have OCD especially when you grow up in a place where God is supposed to the cure to every goddamn mental issue. You're depressed, paranoid or anxious? That's because you don't have enough faith in God, which contributes to why it took me so long to figure out that my problems cannot be solved by any kind of prayer.
I don't feel human anymore. Nothing feels real. my memories don't feel like they belong to me. I don't feel like I have any kind of personality.
I'm tired.