NSFW Feeling so emotionless that even sexual pleasure is nothing to me

[squillykilly]

This is an embarrassing topic but I have nowhere to talk about it, it's like that joke where you choose between crying or jerking off and I feel like EITHER, everything SUCKS. I just want to feel good in any way possible but everything is butt booty buns...

 

[Jisatsu]

Sexual pleasures literally last about a minute for me before I snap put of it and I'm back to hating my existence again.

 

[badatparties]

I'm so detached that i have zero want or need for relationships of any kind, including romantic. I feel like an alien and question why people want these things so much. It wasn't always this way obviously, but i arrived at this point for a reason i guess.

 

[itsgone2]

I see pleasure in nothing, this including this.

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's like other things for me. Nice in the moment but, not good enough to create a reason for me to want to stay here.

I wonder if maybe it was part of a loving relationship, it would be different but then, I don't really crave that either now. Or, maybe it's more I think a relationship would more likely fail or bring along its own problems. I think it would be worse to feel like this being with someone.