Feeling so desperate like im trapped but cant find a method i just want out fast and so bad.

[HermitLonerGuy]

i got no money so cant buy anything, im useless with my hands so find most methods too complicated.

Its like im stuck in Limbo.

I just want to end things, i want to be free.

Why is it so hard to die especially for a useless person like me.

i want to jump but that has complications and scary stuff too but its looking like my only option.

i cant even tie a basic knot.

no matter how much people explain things my mind hits a blank and freezes up.

i want out so bad , let me out .

i tried last year but didnt work meds overdose i just ended up in pain and hospital.

i dont want to just hurt myself, i want out for sure.

what can i do.

seems like im forced to live in limbo a fucked up life since i cant ctb with any reliable methods. fuck this fuck life why did we I have to be born why, suicide by cop maybe please someone end me.

 

[Hollowillow]

I failed a plastic bag twice, partial hanging 3 times (I really meant the 3rd one). I was sitting though.

Never could cut my wrist, so I'm too pussy to stab my neck's side triangle. I would just poke or mute.

I mixed cleaning products by accident been in burning corrhosive agony, main reason to ctb. Don't...

I wish I was a gas engeneer but I can barely blow a baloon

Can't jump... Althout I wonder if I'd be able to bypass SI dressed as a giant bunny & laughing at the future news. But nothing is above 10 floors

I'd like CO charcoal in a tent but none of that or car

Survived accident hit by car

Survived being dragged by the hairs left & right, on my grated knees. No broken beck... But hurts.

Survived 4 days without drinking. Read it's 47?

No pushers for fentanil

SN expensive here, I wish I had cheaper.

Survived covid & coughing blood as a kid

I think only murdering me with a guillotine would work. Oh so that's why I'm pro murder too!

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

I failed a plastic bag twice, partial hanging 3 times (I really meant the 3rd one). I was sitting though.

Never could cut my wrist, so I'm too pussy to stab my neck's side triangle. I would just poke or mute.

I mixed cleaning products by accident been in burning corrhosive agony, main reason to ctb. Don't...

I wish I was a gas engeneer but I can barely blow a baloon

Can't jump... Althout I wonder if I'd be able to bypass SI dressed as a giant bunny & laughing at the future news. But nothing is above 10 floors

I'd like CO charcoal in a tent but none of that or car

Survived accident hit by car

Survived being dragged by the hairs left & right, on my grated knees. No broken beck... But hurts.

Survived 4 days without drinking. Read it's 47?

No pushers for fentanil

SN expensive here, I wish I had cheaper.

Survived covid & coughing blood as a kid

I think only murdering me with a guillotine would work. Oh so that's why I'm pro murder too!

im sorry friend i hope you finally get peace , i fully relate how frustarting this is. I hate how difficult it is to do but others seem to do it so easy, we are doomed if we do doomed if we dont, fuck this i would really rather not have been born.

 

[makethepainstop]

We all shine on like the moon the stars and the sun.

 

[Nirrend]

i got no money so cant buy anything, im useless with my hands so find most methods too complicated.

Its like im stuck in Limbo.

I just want to end things, i want to be free.

Why is it so hard to die especially for a useless person like me.

i want to jump but that has complications and scary stuff too but its looking like my only option.

i cant even tie a basic knot.

no matter how much people explain things my mind hits a blank and freezes up.

i want out so bad , let me out .

i tried last year but didnt work meds overdose i just ended up in pain and hospital.

i dont want to just hurt myself, i want out for sure.

what can i do.

seems like im forced to live in limbo a fucked up life since i cant ctb with any reliable methods. fuck this fuck life why did we I have to be born why, suicide by cop maybe please someone end me.

Hi dear @HermitLonerGuy,

Firstly, I'm really sorry and I'm sure that we all understand the pain your living right now..

Like you've said, many of us feel more confident and happy because when we have a method, we feel like if things in our lives goes worse, we have a way to end this suffering ❤

We would love to help you, the problem is that we aren't miracle makers....

Firstly, may I ask you with what type of pills you OD on the past ? How many did you take and why were you saved ?

Then, I'm not a professionnel in thinking into ctb plans and I'm not incitating you,

But, I already imagined plans for me like:

Taking huge amont of alcohol and also available public gummis to sleep (that could replace hypnotics drugs) and drown myself in a bath, in a pool

Or, with the same idea (gummies for sleep + alcohol), put myself in a closed room or in a car, and use a CO2 Bottle of gas to die of asphyxia while sleeping

The fact of not having money is really hard, I'm sorry for that..

I hope that you'll find the peace you deserve ❤❤

Love ❤

 

[Hope:-)]

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I can relate to feeling stuck- mine's due to anxiety regarding pain, but it's a horrible feeling no matter what's causing it xxx

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

Firstly, may I ask you with what type of pills you OD on the past ? How many dis you take and why was you saved ?

i was actually so deseprate i just took any pills i can find, so anti despersants , sleeping pills , dads heart and hair medications , headaches pills etc.

i wasnt thinking and was deseperate and eager. i just felt sleepy and ill and they pumped my stomach, my dad found me in pain.

one other time i was walking into traffic and again my dad stopped me.

yes i know of a guy that used the CO2 method, he killed himself in his car in his garage and he was with his cat.

he did it over a woman that left him for another guy.

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I can relate to feeling stuck- mine's due to anxiety regarding pain, but it's a horrible feeling no matter what's causing it xxx

can you give me ideas what to do please

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

can you give me ideas what to do please

Do you have medication?

 

[makethepainstop]

Medication can be many things, alcohol, THC gummies, heroin, meth,.......to each his own.

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

Do you have medication?

i tried before it didnt work but maybe cause my dad found me a few hours later.

 

[Hope:-)]

can you give me ideas what to do please

Bless you. Unfortunately I am struggling with the same situation limbo wise so I don't have advice.I wish I had some . I am familiar with your situation and feel for you and the guilt you said you are struggling with. X

 

[Hollowillow]

im sorry friend i hope you finally get peace , i fully relate how frustarting this is. I hate how difficult it is to do but others seem to do it so easy, we are doomed if we do doomed if we dont, fuck this i would really rather not have been born.

Me too... My mother too... She's a thank you

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings are understandable. I'm tired of this pro suffering society that makes dying as difficult for us as possible. To die would be ideal for me as it would solve all my problems but yet leaving this life behind is just not easy. It's horrifying the thought of a method failing and just leading to more damage. If only there was an option to just peacefully pass away without having to research any methods, it's all that I want. I know that it's beyond dreadful feeling trapped here with no way out.
I wish you freedom.