Feeling sick

[Shiro20]

HI guys I just wanna share what's happening to me right now, as the title says I'm feeling sick and I can't complain cause I did this to myself. Yesterday and the day before yesterday I did things just to get sick, to get a bacteria or something I ate dust, drank my cat's water, I washed my hands and then drank the dirty water (it contained dust too), I put my hands into my cat's box and right after I drank soda from my hands also I've been eating unhealthy so much soda and coffee, grassy food sometimes, I don't exercise and some days I skip one meal or two or just not eat enough cause I plan that my organism kills me with time since I don't feel brave to kill myself and maybe that is working out cause I really feel sick right now and well I'm a bit scary it works out maybe I did wrong cause I know I wanna live but no to suffer and now I will just let it be.
I live near the beach really near and thats the only thing i can use to CTB here i'm thinking now that I feel bad maybe it's better find the guts and drawn into the water, I'll suffer just a few minutes before I die and it will be over but I won't do it now I have a glimmer of hope still. Thanks for reading guys.

 

[Ghost2211]

Can you go over your symptoms a bit more? sadly, most of the things you did will just make you feel unwell.

 

[Shiro20]

Can you go over your symptoms a bit more? sadly, most of the things you did will just make you feel unwell.

Yeah, mostly stomachache, colon, headache,feeling like throwing up, a little dizzy

 

[Cherrypea]

There's some interesting stuff in the recourses about drowning, have a read, doesn't sound painful.
Sorry you are feeling sick though, it's pants on top of everything else. I often think about doing all the things you've described in an effort to become ill xx

 

[Ghost2211]

Can you go over your symptoms a bit more? sadly, most of the things you did will just make you feel unwell.

Fever?

 

[Shiro20]

There's some interesting stuff in the recourses about drowning, have a read, doesn't sound painful.
Sorry you are feeling sick though, it's pants on top of everything else. I often think about doing all the things you've described in an effort to become ill xx

I have read some articles that says it only takes 1-2 minutes to drawn but I'm waiting before I decide to do it
And well feeling sick is horrible maybe It's better to find a method and do it , I suggest now

Fever?

No fever, I'm glad to not have so many symptoms, it's mostly my stomach

 

[Ghost2211]

Sounds like a mild GI bug or indigestion since no signs of infection.

Are you doing these things as self harm, or hoping to lead to death?

 

[Cherrypea]

How are you feeling today?

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

HI guys I just wanna share what's happening to me right now, as the title says I'm feeling sick and I can't complain cause I did this to myself. Yesterday and the day before yesterday I did things just to get sick, to get a bacteria or something I ate dust, drank my cat's water, I washed my hands and then drank the dirty water (it contained dust too), I put my hands into my cat's box and right after I drank soda from my hands also I've been eating unhealthy so much soda and coffee, grassy food sometimes, I don't exercise and some days I skip one meal or two or just not eat enough cause I plan that my organism kills me with time since I don't feel brave to kill myself and maybe that is working out cause I really feel sick right now and well I'm a bit scary it works out maybe I did wrong cause I know I wanna live but no to suffer and now I will just let it be.
I live near the beach really near and thats the only thing i can use to CTB here i'm thinking now that I feel bad maybe it's better find the guts and drawn into the water, I'll suffer just a few minutes before I die and it will be over but I won't do it now I have a glimmer of hope still. Thanks for reading guys.

I don't think these things you did are going to kill you anytime soon, you are just going to be very uncomfortable for a few days.

 

[Meditation guide]

I don't think these things you did are going to kill you anytime soon

Contaminating your hands in a cat's box could kill you if you get that type of bacteria inside you. I forget the name of the disease this can cause but it's a bad one.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

Contaminating your hands in a cat's box could kill you if you get that type of bacteria inside you. I forget the name of the disease this can cause but it's a bad one.

Toxoplasmosis?

 

[Shiro20]

How are you feeling today?

Today I feel better like it was only yesterday I felt so bad

Sounds like a mild GI bug or indigestion since no signs of infection.

Are you doing these things as self harm, or hoping to lead to death?

Hoping lead to death but I realized that is going to take so much time and maybe don't kill me so I'll stop doing these things, and wait for something that motives me if not then I will ctb with some method