Feeling really suicidal at the moment.

[BlackPoppet]

Hi everyone!
I'm feeling really like CTB ing at the moment. It's getting unbearable. I keep crying and wishing that I could just end myself.
Whenever I think about CBT ing. I feel a sense of peace and calm wash over me. I'm glad to have the choice to delete myself when I feel this tranquility and calm. It's as if I know my problems will be over and that I can join my deceased relatives, my spirit guides and the gods. I really want to go home to the spirit world.

Hi everyone!
I'm feeling really like CTB ing at the moment. It's getting unbearable. I keep crying and wishing that I could just end myself.
Whenever I think about CBT ing. I feel a sense of peace and calm wash over me. I'm glad to have the choice to delete myself when I feel this tranquility and calm. It's as if I know my problems will be over and that I can join my deceased relatives, my spirit guides and the gods. I really want to go home to the spirit world.

Thank you for the hug @Oyoy ! It means a lot. X

 

[Oyoy]

I'm so sorry you are in pain. I am sending you love. You have helped me by being yourself. I hope you know your a treasure.

 

[BlackPoppet]

I'm so sorry you are in pain. I am sending you love. You have helped me by being yourself. I hope you know your a treasure.

Thank you sweetheart! It means a lot!
You are a treasure too! Xxx

 

[Una]

Hi there @BlackPoppet

I know these are words only, but it is all I have ... I would give you a hug if you would like that, or listen to you or both ... because I know that feeling when tears wash over you day after day and night after night. When there is nothing but sheer pain and the only calm comes from thinking of your deceases relatives.

I wish I could say something better, smatter ... something that might make little bit of difference ... like those funny yellow smiling suns kids draw when they want to make someone feel better ! It might make you smile, even if just for tiny moment.

I am thinking about you and sending a hug. I know it is virtual, but it is still sincere.

U

 

[BlackPoppet]

Thank you @Una !!!! It means a lot! Thank you for your comforting words.
Thanks also for the virtual hug too! I except it gratefully. You're a diamond!
Here is a photo of my adult Indian flower mantis. It's a gift to you, from me. I hope you like her..... her name is Queen Ikebana ( Japanese for " way of flowers ")

 

[Nuclear Gandhi]

Hi everyone!
I'm feeling really like CTB ing at the moment. It's getting unbearable. I keep crying and wishing that I could just end myself.
Whenever I think about CBT ing. I feel a sense of peace and calm wash over me. I'm glad to have the choice to delete myself when I feel this tranquility and calm. It's as if I know my problems will be over and that I can join my deceased relatives, my spirit guides and the gods. I really want to go home to the spirit world.

Thank you for the hug @Oyoy ! It means a lot. X

I know the feeling. It's sometimes so unbearable that I wish I could erase everything that indicates that I ever existed.
I am not really good with words, because I feel like everything I say here comes of very dry and not genuine, but I want you to know that you are not alone. Sending you hugs :)

 

[Brackenshire]

Sending you a big hug ...you are not alone

 

[BlackPoppet]

Tha

I know the feeling. It's sometimes so unbearable that I wish I could erase everything that indicates that I ever existed.
I am not really good with words, because I feel like everything I say here comes of very dry and not genuine, but I want you to know that you are not alone. Sending you hugs :)

Thank you @Nuclear Gandhi it means a lot. Thank you for the hugs! Hugs back to you from me!

This is my new Anery sunkissed Corn snake. Her name is IO...., pronounced eyeoh. I hope you like her. This is stock picture of the morph. My snake is eating so I can't disturb her to take a picture. If she is disturbed, she might regurgitate the pinky mouse. That wouldn't be good and is potentially dangerous for her.

 

[BlackPoppet]

Sending you a big hug ...you are not alone

Thanks. I really appreciate it. I appreciate you. Xxx

Sending you a big hug ...you are not alone

@Brackenshire this photo of my mature female Indian flower mantis is for you!!

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Just a really big hug for you

 

[BlackPoppet]

Just a really big hug for you

Thank you very much love. A big hug back to you, from me. Xxx

 

[K-O]

thank you for friendship and support
you are a beam of warmth to me..
not only knowing that we share "symptoms" and interests but we share the comfort\relief\longing\knowledge.. in the notion of ending it.. it is a quite clean mind space for me as well..
needless to fucking say!- u r not alone sister :)
i think you made me feel that my first day here.. and it hasnt changes and its real.
x

 

[BlackPoppet]

Aww that's so sweet! Thank you for your friendship and support too! I love ya! We do have a lot in common in many ways and it's amazing!
You are a ray of sunshine to me. You are a laugh and a lot of fun.
Im glad you understand me and my feelings of peace, calm, tranquility and autonomy of ending pain. We resonate with each other pretty well.
You are not alone either! You have got me. Don't ever forget that!

 

[K-O]

All aboard the wonk train sistehood matey!! choo choo!!

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Ahhh lass, I hate that you feel like that. you are a wonderful person to talk to and it's always great to hear your perspective. And amazing to find another amateur herpetologist too.

Keep going my friend.

 

[BlackPoppet]

All aboard the wonk train sistehood matey!! choo choo!!
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I'm definitely on board...... Choo Choo!!! Xxxx

Ahhh lass, I hate that you feel like that. you are a wonderful person to talk to and it's always great to hear your perspective. And amazing to find another amateur herpetologist too.

Keep going my friend.

Aww thank you hunny! And ditto! You are lovely to converse with also! I want to thank you for always checking in on me to make sure I'm ok. I appreciate you untold ( a lot) in London slang! I'm glad we are mateys! Love you loads sweetheart! XX
Aww guys!!! You all make me feel like life IS worth living. You are all awesome, beautiful humans. I would like to send you all virtual flowers!
You guys deserve the world!