Venting Feeling Overwhelmed so Rant

[EternalShore]

I just feel so overwhelmed and awful rn~ >_< I don't even have like a true job other than volunteering rn and yet I still feel like it~ >_< I feel like I have to finish a step of my projects because the person I'm doing it with has done like 14 of them, and sure, I got the longest one, but I haven't even done that yet~ >_< Meanwhile, I really want to play a game or 2, but it's like I have an idea of 1 but not which other one I want to~ >_< Anyone ever heard of Megaman before? I read the manga for it in middle school, so I figure I should try a game of it that isn't Rockman's Soccer, but idk which one~ >_< I was thinking of 1, 2, Bass or X7~ Anyways, my dad's (and me too ig) all concerned about getting college classes and possibly changing to a degree that I'd like better (history instead of library science) even tho it has literally no future~ >_< And I still need a freaking job~ Which is probably going to be a campus job, but that means I need to find one~ >_< My dad says they'll find one for me but really? idk~ >_< and ofc, I had to respond to some stuff here because I was really mad earlier and got myself involved in a "argument"~ fun~ >_< I just don't feel very good rn, so I ended up getting a headache too~ >_<
I hate not being able to do everything at once because it just builds up until I want to explode~ >_< or when people are like~ There's something really important I need to tell you! Let's meet tomorrow~ like that always causes me to do a massive freak-out and get super duper depressed and sewer slidal in the meantime~ >_< I hate life so much~ :(

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I just feel so overwhelmed and awful rn~ >_< I don't even have like a true job other than volunteering rn and yet I still feel like it~ >_< I feel like I have to finish a step of my projects because the person I'm doing it with has done like 14 of them, and sure, I got the longest one, but I haven't even done that yet~ >_< Meanwhile, I really want to play a game or 2, but it's like I have an idea of 1 but not which other one I want to~ >_< Anyone ever heard of Megaman before? I read the manga for it in middle school, and I figure I should try a game of it that isn't Rockman's Soccer, but idk which one~ >_< I was thinking of 1, 2, Bass or X7~ Anyways, my dad's (and me too ig) all concerned about getting college classes and possibly changing to a degree that I'd like better (history instead of library science) even tho it has literally no future~ >_< And I still need a freaking job~ Which is probably going to be a campus job, but that means I need to find one~ >_< My dad says they'll find one for me but really? idk~ >_< and ofc, I had to respond to some stuff here because I was really mad earlier and got myself involved in a "argument"~ fun~ >_< I just don't feel very good rn, so I ended up getting a headache too~ >_<
I hate not being able to do everything at once because it just builds up until I want to explode~ >_< or when people are like~ There's something really important I need to tell you! Let's meet tomorrow~ like that always causes me to do a massive freak-out and get super duper depressed and sewer slidal in the meantime~ >_< I hate life so much~ :(

Even if you don't have a job yet it's great that you're at least doing something like volunteering. And don't feel bad about not completing your project yet. I've barely even begun studying the syllabus of all the subjects I'm studying lol. Just take your time and don't rush yourself. I believe in you, and I hope things turn out how you wish for them to.

 

[EternalShore]

I could easily make an addendum to this because when it gets bad, it always immediately gets worse... but no... Other than my brother being an absolute jerk, my mother basically lying to me, and the person I'm talking to going to sleep, the rest of it is rather something that makes me too uncomfy to explain~ >_<
EDIT: Wow, my mom is such an absolute jerk~ >_<